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Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
- Jan 15, 2022
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I am 31 yo and I live with my parents. I'm disabled, chronically ill. With great pains (and some encouraging passion impulses) I finished a programming course. Now I have a office job on a probationary period. Bosses press me and I hate it. I fucking hate managers at this point, bluntly telling you that they're evaluating you after giving some absurd task.
My family liked to think I was becoming more normal but dealing up close with the uglyness of human nature and particularly with hierarchies has made me feel more tired and despondent.
Thing is, I wasn't having a great time when I picked up programming. Doing nothing all day but watching conspiracy videos or uploading them when I wasn't masturbating, reading the likes of Arthur Schopenhauer or playing videogames. Lmao. Things were deteriorating either way.
It's probably all explained by my sleep disorder, which makes me chronically tired, humourless and scatter brained. You probably can't work in this state, but neither can you enjoy yourself in a leisurely life either, even if you were spared work.
My family liked to think I was becoming more normal but dealing up close with the uglyness of human nature and particularly with hierarchies has made me feel more tired and despondent.
Thing is, I wasn't having a great time when I picked up programming. Doing nothing all day but watching conspiracy videos or uploading them when I wasn't masturbating, reading the likes of Arthur Schopenhauer or playing videogames. Lmao. Things were deteriorating either way.
It's probably all explained by my sleep disorder, which makes me chronically tired, humourless and scatter brained. You probably can't work in this state, but neither can you enjoy yourself in a leisurely life either, even if you were spared work.