TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
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In the older thread about what one would do if they had quadriplegia, as it is one of the scariest fates (along with other morbid situations and states in life). I had some people misconstrue what I meant by it. I want to emphasize that I am NOT trying to gate-keep, nor judge, nor deciding whether their lives are worth it (that is their own value judgment and personal decision) I respect whatever decision they arrive to, whether to continue fighting and living or giving up and CTB'ing. Yes there are people who persevere and also manage to live a fulfilling life despite whatever challenges and ailments they face, and I respect them for it. They have my kudos and gratitude. However, I am NOT one of them nor do I live with such values.
With all that said, here is such an example of when and under which conditions and circumstances I would consider CTB (below):
As I was younger, I oftenly had an interest in being able to play video games and play them well (not necessarily as good as 'certain' people, but good enough for my standards, my taste). The same applies for music too, especially the piano. After many years of deliberation and consideration, I have always come to the conclusion that if I can't do what I wish to do (or even close to it), then the hobby is pointless, dead, no longer enjoyable, fun, etc. So for instance, if I suffer a physical injury (be it piano related or outside of piano playing) that caused me to be unable to play at the level I used to play and no longer enjoy it the same way I once did, then it's over for me. The same applies for psychological injuries and problems (not limtied to: nerves, anxiety, performance anxiety). To many people, it may come as rather radical, or extreme, but that's just my take on this hobby for myself and my life.
I would even consider the same, if god forbid, I ended up with some ailment that caused my quality of life to drop in other areas such that I am even unable to do basic needs and function in day to day life and would need assistance in many basic day to day activities. I consider myself an very independent person and losing that would greatly push me towards CTB'ing.
In other words, what I mean is that if a time comes where I am unable to play the piano to the level and quality I want, owing it to psychological, physical, and or other causes, then I would CTB (along with other factors and reasons as well).
With all that said, here is such an example of when and under which conditions and circumstances I would consider CTB (below):
As I was younger, I oftenly had an interest in being able to play video games and play them well (not necessarily as good as 'certain' people, but good enough for my standards, my taste). The same applies for music too, especially the piano. After many years of deliberation and consideration, I have always come to the conclusion that if I can't do what I wish to do (or even close to it), then the hobby is pointless, dead, no longer enjoyable, fun, etc. So for instance, if I suffer a physical injury (be it piano related or outside of piano playing) that caused me to be unable to play at the level I used to play and no longer enjoy it the same way I once did, then it's over for me. The same applies for psychological injuries and problems (not limtied to: nerves, anxiety, performance anxiety). To many people, it may come as rather radical, or extreme, but that's just my take on this hobby for myself and my life.
I would even consider the same, if god forbid, I ended up with some ailment that caused my quality of life to drop in other areas such that I am even unable to do basic needs and function in day to day life and would need assistance in many basic day to day activities. I consider myself an very independent person and losing that would greatly push me towards CTB'ing.
In other words, what I mean is that if a time comes where I am unable to play the piano to the level and quality I want, owing it to psychological, physical, and or other causes, then I would CTB (along with other factors and reasons as well).
