I think that death is too much of a mercy for piece of shit humans like abusive parents. Honestly, abusive parents should stay alive for as long as possible so that they suffer for longer via life. I hope that these people get to old age and suffer excruciating pain from dementia or alzheimers or just from the mere degradation of their body. If they're dead, they'll be free from any harm but these people deserve harm since they caused harm on to their own kids. I'm in the same situation and, if I had a ctb method that is easily accessible at home and has a high success rate, I'd immediately end myself