Wish was dead

[Jakey]

Life is too much hell for me to bear. I've been wanting to kill myself since before even my teen years; it's been going on for about a decade now, I guess; maybe less, maybe more. Life is a dark, deep and cold void where you can only project some flimsy illusions over it to beguile you for sometime to distract you, but the pain and futility is always essential to it. I wish i could just die now.

 

[wunschtraum]

i startet to wish i was never born with 12 or 14.
that is more than 15 years ago.
Do you really want to go or only have the wish not to be here?

 

[Jakey]

I want to go, and I don't want to be here.

 

[wunschtraum]

i dont want to ne ;-)

 

[Jakey]

I'm fully in love with "easeful death" tbh

 

[wunschtraum]

what do you mean?