Venting Wish someone could ctb for me.

[buttonfish]

ik. its pathetic. im a useless person, and i genuinely cannot do anything (part of the reason i want to CTB)
but i wish so badly that someone could just come and kill me. that would get rid of all my reservations about going thru with it

 

[d3c4y]

it's not pathetic at all, ctb is a hard thing to bring yourself to do. although it's very rare, there might be someone who can help you on the partners thread if this is something you're serious about. (I'm not sure if helping like that is against guidelines but there's always that one individual)

 

[Gonnerr]

I told one of my best friend that if he can get me nembutal , i would give him all my money which is a good amount.

 

[buttonfish]

I told one of my best friend that if he can get me nembutal , i would give him all my money which is a good amount.

thats a pretty good deal

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Sometimes I fantasise about robbing a vets to try and find it.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's understandable wishing for that, it really is too unnecessarily difficult to cease existing on our own terms, it should be much more straightforward to find permanent relief from this existence.

 

[alterationitfinds]

i feeeeel this on a different level. i regularly fantasise about getting unlucky on my way home from college and somebody taking it out of my hands. i always walk past all the shitty bars and down the back alleys to get home just in case i might be in the "wrong place and the wrong time" and it's no longer my decision.

 

[buttonfish]

i feeeeel this on a different level. i regularly fantasise about getting unlucky on my way home from college and somebody taking it out of my hands. i always walk past all the shitty bars and down the back alleys to get home just in case i might be in the "wrong place and the wrong time" and it's no longer my decision.

for real.
sometimes i think about purposely pissing off cops so that theyd shoot me

 

[alterationitfinds]

i think it's completely down to luck really, most people you can piss them off to no end and they'll do nothing but some people are so eager for violence that it takes hardly anything. i hear sooo many stories on the news about teenagers being murdered and their families are devastated because the victim was so full of life. But the people who aren't full of life and are ready to go aren't ever the ones who meet that fate at someone else's hands. the world is backwards.

 

[buttonfish]

i think it's completely down to luck really, most people you can piss them off to no end and they'll do nothing but some people are so eager for violence that it takes hardly anything. i hear sooo many stories on the news about teenagers being murdered and their families are devastated because the victim was so full of life. But the people who aren't full of life and are ready to go aren't ever the ones who meet that fate at someone else's hands. the world is backwards.

its honestly so frustrating.

 

[carnivalforone]

I told one of my best friend that if he can get me nembutal , i would give him all my money which is a good amount.

i have insomnia i could probably coerce myself into some doses

 

[Lost21]

I share you feelings

 

[SmollMushroom]

i have insomnia i could probably coerce myself into some doses

Wait a second. I thought it was for pets euthanasia only.
Can it be prescribed to people aswell? Are you sure?

 

[carnivalforone]

Wait a second. I thought it was for pets euthanasia only.
Can it be prescribed to people aswell? Are you sure?

i just looked up the drug and saw insomnia as one of the things it can treat i assumed i could probably just ask some1 since i alr have the diagnosis. ig i gotta do more asking around

 

[SmollMushroom]

i just looked up the drug and saw insomnia as one of the things it can treat i assumed i could probably just ask some1 since i alr have the diagnosis. ig i gotta do more asking around

Yes, please keep us updated with this. Please feel free to DM me too, you'd be of such a great help. Thank you.

 

[d3c4y]

Yes, please keep us updated with this. Please feel free to DM me too, you'd be of such a great help. Thank you.

doctorbarbiturate.com has a lot of information on nembutal as ctb method ( and list where to access getting it i think?)

 

[carnivalforone]

Yes, please keep us updated with this. Please feel free to DM me too, you'd be of such a great help. Thank you.

ill make an appointment and find out ill let you know :)

 

[sserafim]

ik. its pathetic. im a useless person, and i genuinely cannot do anything (part of the reason i want to CTB)
but i wish so badly that someone could just come and kill me. that would get rid of all my reservations about going thru with it

Same! I wish someone could kill me as well. I thought of hiring a hitman to do it but sadly I'm broke :/

 

[wheretfami]

I've thought this too. That also gets rid of the extra pain and confusion there would be for my loved ones if it were suicide. Can't help but feel like it would hurt them less.

 

[Amlg]

I would be lying if I said that i didn't imagine someone shooting me in the head once too many times

 

[voyager]

Can see where you're coming from. Murder/suicide does have it's appeal, but I think at the end of the day I'd prefer deciding myself when to end it. Wouldn't mind having an imaginary second though like the Japanese or Romans of old. Basically, one strikes the first blow to prove one's determination and that second then decapitates/stabs one to gift one a smooth passing.

Same! I wish someone could kill me as well. I thought of hiring a hitman to do it but sadly I'm broke :/

It's all scams anyway, don't worry about it.

 

[lessthanperfect]

ill make an appointment and find out ill let you know :)

Definitely keep us updated if you get it. I also have insomnia so I might also have the option if it works

 

[xxxbmw]

ill make an appointment and find out ill let you know :)

Please update me aswell

 

[eashanm]

doctorbarbiturate.com has a lot of information on nembutal as ctb method ( and list where to access getting it i think?)

Wwre you able to get N on doctorbarbiturate website?

 

[mafuyu]

i think if you're really desperate, you could try suicide by cop

that's my veeerry last hope

 

[wanttodie]

me to i wish so badly that someone could just come and kill me

 

[xxxbmw]

ik. its pathetic. im a useless person, and i genuinely cannot do anything (part of the reason i want to CTB)
but i wish so badly that someone could just come and kill me. that would get rid of all my reservations about going thru with it

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-new-partner-mega-thread.143684/

ik. its pathetic. im a useless person, and i genuinely cannot do anything (part of the reason i want to CTB)
but i wish so badly that someone could just come and kill me. that would get rid of all my reservations about going thru with it

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

Help make it easier.

me to i wish so badly that someone could just come and kill me

ik. its pathetic. im a useless person, and i genuinely cannot do anything (part of the reason i want to CTB)
but i wish so badly that someone could just come and kill me. that would get rid of all my reservations about goingwith it

ik. its pathetic. im a useless person, and i genuinely cannot do anything (part of the reason i want to CTB)
but i wish so badly that someone could just come and kill me. that would get rid of all my reservations about going thru with it

it's not pathetic at all, ctb is a hard thing to bring yourself to do. although it's very rare, there might be someone who can help you on the partners thread if this is something you're serious about. (I'm not sure if helping like that is against guidelines but there's always that one individual)

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-new-partner-mega-thread.143684/

me to i wish so badly that someone could just come and kill me

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-new-partner-mega-thread.143684/

i think if you're really desperate, you could try suicide by cop

that's my veeerry last hope

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-new-partner-mega-thread.143684/

Wwre you able to get N on doctorbarbiturate website?

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-new-partner-mega-thread.143684/

Can see where you're coming from. Murder/suicide does have it's appeal, but I think at the end of the day I'd prefer deciding myself when to end it. Wouldn't mind having an imaginary second though like the Japanese or Romans of old. Basically, one strikes the first blow to prove one's determination and that second then decapitates/stabs one to gift one a smooth passing.

It's all scams anyway, don't worry about it.

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-new-partner-mega-thread.143684/

I would be lying if I said that i didn't imagine someone shooting me in the head once too many times

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-new-partner-mega-thread.143684/

I've thought this too. That also gets rid of the extra pain and confusion there would be for my loved ones if it were suicide. Can't help but feel like it would hurt them less.

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-new-partner-mega-thread.143684/

Same! I wish someone could kill me as well. I thought of hiring a hitman to do it but sadly I'm broke :/

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-new-partner-mega-thread.143684/

ill make an appointment and find out ill let you know :)

I'm gonna make a suggestion on the forum suggestions for people in this thread that find it hard to ctb alone. To people who are disabled some could be disabled or poor. I talked to numerous people, some had memory issues other had focusing problems which make it hard to research the preferred method. I hope you guys upvote my post on the forum suggestions

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-new-partner-mega-thread.143684/