Discussion Will you cry when you die?

[Ratherbeskinny]

Do you think you're going to cry when you're busy with CTB?

I'm not sure. I think I will, but it depends on my mood; I might be crying and laughing at the same time, who knows.

 

[Moon Flower]

I think I probably will, I'm sentimental

 

[FrailPaleStaleMaleSS]

I doubt it.

 

[LonelyLight]

Probably before it, I'm not sure about during it, anxiety will probably be on high alert more than feeling sadness

 

[Fadinglife]

i might

 

[Cookiedough8956]

I most likely will- I'm an emotional person.
Or i might be "numb". Idk.
Its really hard to say. I can imagine a lot of scenarios (like i always have) but at the actual moment. Who knows. I know i will be scares though. That's for sure.

 

[Shivani]

I am sure I will

 

[passenger27]

I'm sure I will not too proud to admit it. At least they'll be the last tears ...

 

[CrushedHopes]

I don't know. But a few days ago, I let it all out and cried. I cried about the friends that cared about me even after I got outed, and it hurt me that I had to use such hurtful methods to push them away and stop whiteknighting me. SS is one of the few places that I still go to online. I've made all the preparations and now I am ready to go soon.

 

[Bombasflower]

I have been crying off and on, but when the moment itself comes I may be at peace with my decision.
Of course, I don't know how I will react in the situation itself.

 

[sonax22]

It depends on the state of mind that time..either if the decision is at the moment so it will be impulsive and quick so it will force out lots of cries and chaotic emotions
Or if it was planned out for a long time and I'm ready,I feel like I would be happy numb and stable
But at the end you never know till the time comes

 

[Numbtopain97]

maybe

 

[MeltingHeart]

Yes, prob-hysteically so- unless adrenaline/ nerves makes me feel numb some how. could be that.

 

[noctiva]

I know I will, because the irrational hope I hold is not ever going to die.
Dying is not something my heart has decided, my heart wants to live and be happy and be hopeful!
It is something my brain has decided, it is a rational and logical decision because I know that my problems are too big for me, too time intensive to heal and insurmountable with no one supporting me.
But my heart will never accept this decision, it will hope until the end, and I will cry because I wish with all I got that my heart would get its way. I wish I could have the life I dream of having, and I think that is worth crying for.

I wish everyone here that they find some form of inner peace.

 

[Reyki6667]

Cry of happiness / relief for finally being released from that ever lasting nightmare? Maybe, but I doubt so.
I can't even cry anymore properly anymore, the only emotion I remain is anger/none.

 

[CrushedHopes]

I know I will, because the irrational hope I hold is not ever going to die.
Dying is not something my heart has decided, my heart wants to live and be happy and be hopeful!
It is something my brain has decided, it is a rational and logical decision because I know that my problems are too big for me, too time intensive to heal and insurmountable with no one supporting me.
But my heart will never accept this decision, it will hope until the end, and I will cry because I wish with all I got that my heart would get its way. I wish I could have the life I dream of having, and I think that is worth crying for.

I wish everyone here that they find some form of inner peace.

I feel you so much. With the resources I have, I absolutely had the potential to soar through great heights. But I blew it all and now I don't have a future anymore. I've had enough. I will embrace death and be responsible for once in my damn life and put an end to myself.

 

[noctiva]

I feel you so much. With the resources I have, I absolutely had the potential to soar through great heights. But I blew it all and now I don't have a future anymore. I've had enough. I will embrace death and be responsible for once in my damn life and put an end to myself.

I hear you, sometimes the only path left is to leave without betraying who you are and without losing your mind. It hurts like hell, but I cannot imagine who I could ever be if I am not the person I lost. And to figure this out, I would need a huge amount of money, time and counseling, which I don't have.

I wish you a peaceful journey, wherever it might take you.

 

[Kodama]

Sure i will... I already cried a lot thinking about that...

 

[CrushedHopes]

I hear you, sometimes the only path left is to leave without betraying who you are and without losing your mind. It hurts like hell, but I cannot imagine who I could ever be if I am not the person I lost. And to figure this out, I would need a huge amount of money, time and counseling, which I don't have.

I wish you a peaceful journey, wherever it might take you.

Same goes for you, if and when you choose to CTB.

 

[dreamsofdestruction]

Seems likely, it's not a happy thing for me.

 

[metalchic_74]

My last attempt I cried. While I had a belt around my neck attached to my door. I cried out to God asking him to forgive me for all the mistakes I've done over the years. I told him I can't take the pain anymore. I told him I'm sick of being mentally ill and a slave to all these pills I take. I asked him to let me go and allow me to come to Heaven. I asked to make it quick and painless. I got scared and aborted. It's been almost a month. I'm ready to try again. I don't want to go to Hell. I'm scared I won't do it right. Just a constant battle in my mind.

 

[Hadenuf]

Yes

 

[Astral316]

I'll cry... tears of joy.

 

[Woodnote]

I know I will.

 

[trynacbt]

I think I might, part of me might be so terrified of being caught though that I'll just be hyper vigilant/anxious. I don't know. But there will definitely be some sadness, even though I know it is the right thing for me.

 

[Sunshine]

I know I will, because the irrational hope I hold is not ever going to die.
Dying is not something my heart has decided, my heart wants to live and be happy and be hopeful!
It is something my brain has decided, it is a rational and logical decision because I know that my problems are too big for me, too time intensive to heal and insurmountable with no one supporting me.
But my heart will never accept this decision, it will hope until the end, and I will cry because I wish with all I got that my heart would get its way. I wish I could have the life I dream of having, and I think that is worth crying for.

I wish everyone here that they find some form of inner peace.

Damn this is so accurate.

 

[JimFord99]

Likely not, I probably will feel released, released, reliberated, ...

 

[Jean4]

I know I will, because the irrational hope I hold is not ever going to die.
Dying is not something my heart has decided, my heart wants to live and be happy and be hopeful!
It is something my brain has decided, it is a rational and logical decision because I know that my problems are too big for me, too time intensive to heal and insurmountable with no one supporting me.
But my heart will never accept this decision, it will hope until the end, and I will cry because I wish with all I got that my heart would get its way. I wish I could have the life I dream of having, and I think that is worth crying for.

I wish everyone here that they find some form of inner peace.

Nicely stated.

My last attempt I cried. While I had a belt around my neck attached to my door. I cried out to God asking him to forgive me for all the mistakes I've done over the years. I told him I can't take the pain anymore. I told him I'm sick of being mentally ill and a slave to all these pills I take. I asked him to let me go and allow me to come to Heaven. I asked to make it quick and painless. I got scared and aborted. It's been almost a month. I'm ready to try again. I don't want to go to Hell. I'm scared I won't do it right. Just a constant battle in my mind.

My opinion. We are in Hell now. ;)

 

[deadalready1969]

I wasn't crying when I went to bed hoping to pass. I just crawled under my covers thinking I wouldn't wake up. It was almost like any other night, oddly. Maybe because I think about this so much.

I was crying when the police and EMTs came into my house to take me to the hospital because I was still somewhat lucid. Someone saw a dark post on IG and got worried, so that's why help arrived. I don't know why my post was a surprise since I always write dark poetry.

I almost died in the ER. I have a DNI/DNR now. I'm planning to use SN the next time. ODing wasn't successful.

 

[Neverod]

I'll probably cry, sadness and happiness while telling myself: "it was a fun ride".