Help Will alcohol help kill my desire for survival?

[LifeIsASadist]

I am going on vacation tomorrow for my birthday for the next 4 days and I plan to drink alcohol as much as possible as I think it could help me destroy my desire for survival. Sure I feel my survival instincts are dying out but I want to ensure my survival instincts are gone for good.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

It helps me with fear of death yes. Know if it will be that way for everyone though. Maybe on your vacation you will feel better about life and not have to do anything in terms of ending it. Good luck to you.

 

[사람이 없어]

Definitely has for me. I've done various risky things while intoxicated before that I'd be too scared to when alive, though I've always been caught because I do get careless and obvious af when drunk.
Ran around on train tracks before at the station itself not giving af about trains or anything, and I obviously got yelled at a lot when they came to stop me.

 

[Rose Mine]

Idk for me it wouldn't work. I got drunk last night and felt the happiest and at most peace. Maybe it's because I don't drink but it was nice. Maybe test it out if you want with no strong expectations.

 

[사람이 없어]

Idk for me it wouldn't work. I got drunk last night and felt the happiest and at most peace. Maybe it's because I don't drink but it was nice. Maybe test it out if you want with no strong expectations.

I've been drinking way more recently, but my tolerance is 0, so one glass is enough to have me drunk for a few hours.. Not even joking.. Until I finish my bottle(s) I'll usually have a glass a day and at least be more at peace for a few hours. Though once I finish my bottles I eventually long for some again.. I know I am inching closer towards alcoholism so I am trying to abstain beyond every now and then, but it does get real hard at times.