Story Why This is My Decision: Part 1 - Intro

[isthisnot1d3al]

Hi, everyone (if no one is reading this: hi, creatures that fill the void around me). My name's Chris, I'm an artist, a writer, an all-around nerd, and perhaps most pertinent: I am currently planning to die.

(It feels really relieving to say that outside of my head. Normally I keep it all nice and locked up until I implode )

Because normally even people I pay can't be bothered to listen to me blather on about all of my insanity, I am seizing my chance and being incredibly through here (no personal details, of course; just everything that I normally keep in my mind).

As such, there will be multiple parts to this, including:

• One (or more) talking about trauma
• One about being transgender
• One about my diagnoses (and some that are widely debated)
• One about my OSFED specifically
• One about my chronic pain
• One about my current mental state and the limitations it places on me
• One talking about how I'm planning everything right now
• And one to sum up everything I'm feeling about all of this I guess

Feel free to not pay any to this; like I said, I just want to get it out of my head, if only so I don't 'jump the gun', so to speak (is it okay to use dark humor here?)

Furthermore, let me know if anything I do goes against the rules or personally offends you so I have time to edit, please!

 

[ValideSultana]

Hi, everyone (if no one is reading this: hi, creatures that fill the void around me). My name's Chris, I'm an artist, a writer, an all-around nerd, and perhaps most pertinent: I am currently planning to die.

(It feels really relieving to say that outside of my head. Normally I keep it all nice and locked up until I implode )

Because normally even people I pay can't be bothered to listen to me blather on about all of my insanity, I am seizing my chance and being incredibly through here (no personal details, of course; just everything that I normally keep in my mind).

As such, there will be multiple parts to this, including:

• One (or more) talking about trauma
• One about being transgender
• One about my diagnoses (and some that are widely debated)
• One about my OSFED specifically
• One about my chronic pain
• One about my current mental state and the limitations it places on me
• One talking about how I'm planning everything right now
• And one to sum up everything I'm feeling about all of this I guess

Feel free to not pay any to this; like I said, I just want to get it out of my head, if only so I don't 'jump the gun', so to speak (is it okay to use dark humor here?)

Furthermore, let me know if anything I do goes against the rules or personally offends you so I have time to edit, please!

Tell us. Sometimes it helps to talk. Especially to faceless, anonymous people.

 

[LadyAlastor]

Oh hai! This is my partner I was talking about, talk about it all you want I support you bud.

 

[isthisnot1d3al]

Oh hai! This is my partner I was talking about, talk about it all you want I support you bud.

Awww thanks :) *hug*

Tell us. Sometimes it helps to talk. Especially to faceless, anonymous people.

Yeah, I think it probably will. At the very least, I'll have something to reference when people want me to articulate something specific about literally anything.

 

[BlueWidow]

Hi, everyone (if no one is reading this: hi, creatures that fill the void around me). My name's Chris, I'm an artist, a writer, an all-around nerd, and perhaps most pertinent: I am currently planning to die.

(It feels really relieving to say that outside of my head. Normally I keep it all nice and locked up until I implode )

Because normally even people I pay can't be bothered to listen to me blather on about all of my insanity, I am seizing my chance and being incredibly through here (no personal details, of course; just everything that I normally keep in my mind).

As such, there will be multiple parts to this, including:

• One (or more) talking about trauma
• One about being transgender
• One about my diagnoses (and some that are widely debated)
• One about my OSFED specifically
• One about my chronic pain
• One about my current mental state and the limitations it places on me
• One talking about how I'm planning everything right now
• And one to sum up everything I'm feeling about all of this I guess

Feel free to not pay any to this; like I said, I just want to get it out of my head, if only so I don't 'jump the gun', so to speak (is it okay to use dark humor here?)

Furthermore, let me know if anything I do goes against the rules or personally offends you so I have time to edit, please!

Welcome to the forum. Feel free to vent, use dark humor, and do whatever else you need to do. We are here to listen. There's no judgement here. Being thorough is good. It prevents mistakes and failing to achieve your goals, whatever they may be.