Discussion Why the rush?

[Nottoohotlatte]

In my very short time as a member on this thread I have noticed the rush some have for CTB.
I respect everyone's choice and ability to make their own decisions but some parts of me can't help but hope the decisions aren't rushed.
Are there really that many of us that don't want to try to enjoy as much as we can before final departure?

Sending love to all of You, XO
To add a little more to the conversation.

WHAT ARE SOME THINGS WE SHOULD ALL TRY TO EXPERIENCE BEFORE FINDING OUR PEACE WITH CTB???

 

[the box is empty]

It's different for everyone. Maybe they're hurting right then and there so much that they can't bear it anymore. Maybe some have been in pain so long that they just can't fight it anymore. It's the whole trapped in a burning building scenario. Should I let the smoke kill me or the fall?

We all have our reasons and we can only hope that we are making the right decisions.

 

[Otter]

Some have been in pain for years before joining this forum. They've been ready to go for a while.

 

[Nottoohotlatte]

Should I let the smoke kill me or the fall?

What a great analogy. Really puts it into perspective for me, I appreciate it

Some have been in pain for years before joining this forum. They've been ready to go for a while.

I understand what you mean.
I am aware that we all have our own situations and metal/physical battles, that most will never fully understand because they have not lived it. I just wish for everyone to truly find as much peace as they can in their last moments with us.

 

[waterbottleman]

When you're super depressed it's hard to enjoy anything.

Thats what severe depression does to a person, it sucks out the life and soul out of everything that used to give you joy in life.

There are so many things I used to love, so many hobbies I used to have, so many things I loved to read/learn more about but depression has robbed all of these pleasant things in life from me.

My sense of self worth is zero. I literally believe everyone is better and superior than me.

Even horrible/evil people are better than me. At least horrible/evil people are given some attention and many are even adored.

I'm a ghost, I am so worthless to the rest of humanity that they don't even acknowledge me. At least an evil person has enough worth to be acknowledged and paid some attention to.

I'm of no more value than the rock on the sidewalk we all mindlessly kick away while walking never even acknowledging it. Well actually that isn't accurate, because at least you noticed the rock enough to kick it away.

I've lived like this for 29 years. I'm done, I can't take the pain and total isolation anymore.

As far as humanity is concerned I've never been alive, I've never been a living person. Ill get just as much attention being dead and non existent as I did when I was "alive" which is nothing.

So yeah there you have it, that's why I don't want to live anymore.

 

[Nottoohotlatte]

So yeah there you have it

Thank you for sharing Water. I'm saddened to find relation with your story.
I hope you have found some sort of relief in this community as I have. I'm always here to talk and remind you a little more of your value to the people you have touched If you need it.
Sending you an unmeasurable amount of love, XO

 

[Otter]

When you're super depressed it's hard to enjoy anything.

Thats what severe depression does to a person, it sucks out the life and soul out of everything that used to give you joy in life.

There are so many things I used to love, so many hobbies I used to have, so many things I loved to read/learn more about but depression has robbed all of these pleasant things in life from me.

My sense of self worth is zero. I literally believe everyone is better and superior than me.

Even horrible/evil people are better than me. At least horrible/evil people are given some attention and many are even adored.

I'm a ghost, I am so worthless to the rest of humanity that they don't even acknowledge me. At least an evil person has enough worth to be acknowledged and paid some attention to.

I'm of no more value than the rock on the sidewalk we all mindlessly kick away while walking never even acknowledging it. Well actually that isn't accurate, because at least you noticed the rock enough to kick it away.

I've lived like this for 29 years. I'm done, I can't take the pain and total isolation anymore.

As far as humanity is concerned I've never been alive, I've never been a living person. Ill get just as much attention being dead and non existent as I did when I was "alive" which is nothing.

So yeah there you have it, that's why I don't want to live anymore.

Totally relate. I call it "feeling invisible" I'm the type that will wear pajama pants to Walmart because no one even notices me. I don't shower for months at a time. If I died, no one would even know for months-until they smell me rotting. No one checks up on me or would miss me.

 

[BlackPoppet]

In my very short time as a member on this thread I have noticed the rush some have for CTB.
I respect everyone's choice and ability to make their own decisions but some parts of me can't help but hope the decisions aren't rushed.
Are there really that many of us that don't want to try to enjoy as much as we can before final departure?

Sending love to all of You, XO
To add a little more to the conversation.

WHAT ARE SOME THINGS WE SHOULD ALL TRY TO EXPERIENCE BEFORE FINDING OUR PEACE WITH CTB???

what like a bucket list? I'd love to travel to America and visit Arizona and Utah! I'd like to swim with Dolphins in their natural habitat. I'd like to learn to speak Latin.....there's lots of thing I'd like to do before I CTB

Totally relate. I call it "feeling invisible" I'm the type that will wear pajama pants to Walmart because no one even notices me. I don't shower for months at a time. If I died, no one would even know for months-until they smell me rotting. No one checks up on me or would miss me.

 

[Despondent]

I don't think it's rushed, but maybe they're desperate to go? you know this world really sucks when people are desperate and want out :/