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mistymoo
Im going to be apart of the 27 club
- May 30, 2024
- 18
I know to most people it might not be a huge amount to pay but for me it is. I just can't afford SN and I'm in Canada so no firearm(Unless I use a bb gun which will fail.)
I'm so sick of this shit. I'm sick of constantly being sad and crying. I don't have a life anymore. I don't even leave my house anymore. I'm quite literally just a drain on society.
There's a bridge near me that says it has a fall of 19.8 metres (65 ft 0 in.) I keep fantizing about it. I think my si will be way too strong to jump however. My fear of heights makes me freeze up.
I'm at the point tho that I can't handle this pain anymore. I've been thinking of jumping infront of a bus but I think I'll survive it. The traffic is just too slow. At this point I don't care how much I suffer physically just as long as I don't get back up.
Maybe I'll walk to the highway and wait for a truck or bus. I seriously do not want to traumatize anyone else but the pain is just becoming too much. Once I'm gone, im gone. I don't want to worry about the person(s) I traumatize. It'll be the most selfish and selfless thing I've ever done. My end is coming very soon
I'm so sick of this shit. I'm sick of constantly being sad and crying. I don't have a life anymore. I don't even leave my house anymore. I'm quite literally just a drain on society.
There's a bridge near me that says it has a fall of 19.8 metres (65 ft 0 in.) I keep fantizing about it. I think my si will be way too strong to jump however. My fear of heights makes me freeze up.
I'm at the point tho that I can't handle this pain anymore. I've been thinking of jumping infront of a bus but I think I'll survive it. The traffic is just too slow. At this point I don't care how much I suffer physically just as long as I don't get back up.
Maybe I'll walk to the highway and wait for a truck or bus. I seriously do not want to traumatize anyone else but the pain is just becoming too much. Once I'm gone, im gone. I don't want to worry about the person(s) I traumatize. It'll be the most selfish and selfless thing I've ever done. My end is coming very soon