I'm 23 years old, male, from Italy. I struggle with depression since middle school. I take two antidepressants and an antipsychotic which is also an antidepressant to deal with anger.
I have a history of domestic abuse. I am bisexual and I passed through a lot of homophobia.
I'm followed by a psychiatrist and a psychotherapist. They are both good.
It's like there are two versions of me. There are periods that are full of meaning and activities, and periods where I see no points in being alive.
I mean what's the point of living? We will die sooner or later. Life is also pleasure but let's be real, isn't it more sorrow and horror than happiness?
I think that the only thing that keeps us alive is an evolution proved biochemical algorithm that releases dopamine, serotonin, and noradrenalin when we commit pro-life actions, such as eating, breathing, chatting, having sex, running. But I think that if we use only reason and we try to go behind the curtain of our brains chemical reality shows in all of its brutality.
I was a vegetarian from 12 to 20. I won't talk here about the reasons why I had started and then stopped. Can you imagine the horror we make animals live just because we prefer to eat meat instead of plants? Personally, I'm not disturbed about them being slaughtered, but I struggle for all the sorrow they face in those intensive farms. But just because we want to feel the meat flavor, we just shrug about it.
We are merciless. We use goods and services that come from whoever knows places where child labor and slavery are normality. We buy stuff that legitimate authoritarian government, where people get jailed and tortured for mere dissent of the willingness of freedom.
We just don't care.
Do you have any idea of how merciless is nature? Once I read just some pages of a book whose title was "coercive sex in animals". There are species of ducks that developed particularly ' anti-rape complex vaginas' after millions of years of coercive sex. There are species of flies whose skill is perforated by the penis of the male because the vagina cannot be accessed from the outside. After sex, the female dies after excruciating pain
Why do we accept to be part of all of this? Because of a biochemical algorithm that awards us with makes-you-happy neurotransmitters when we play right the game of massacre which is life.
We must die. It's just a question of when. Why not have control over it? In the end, after it we won't face sorrow anymore, we won't make others sorrow anymore.
Now I don't feel depressed. I feel well. Yesterday I recovered in one day 2 weeks of mathematics courses. I just think I saw clearly through the life deal, and I prefer to put morals and thoughts over chemicals.
What's your opinion?
I have a history of domestic abuse. I am bisexual and I passed through a lot of homophobia.
I'm followed by a psychiatrist and a psychotherapist. They are both good.
It's like there are two versions of me. There are periods that are full of meaning and activities, and periods where I see no points in being alive.
I mean what's the point of living? We will die sooner or later. Life is also pleasure but let's be real, isn't it more sorrow and horror than happiness?
I think that the only thing that keeps us alive is an evolution proved biochemical algorithm that releases dopamine, serotonin, and noradrenalin when we commit pro-life actions, such as eating, breathing, chatting, having sex, running. But I think that if we use only reason and we try to go behind the curtain of our brains chemical reality shows in all of its brutality.
I was a vegetarian from 12 to 20. I won't talk here about the reasons why I had started and then stopped. Can you imagine the horror we make animals live just because we prefer to eat meat instead of plants? Personally, I'm not disturbed about them being slaughtered, but I struggle for all the sorrow they face in those intensive farms. But just because we want to feel the meat flavor, we just shrug about it.
We are merciless. We use goods and services that come from whoever knows places where child labor and slavery are normality. We buy stuff that legitimate authoritarian government, where people get jailed and tortured for mere dissent of the willingness of freedom.
We just don't care.
Do you have any idea of how merciless is nature? Once I read just some pages of a book whose title was "coercive sex in animals". There are species of ducks that developed particularly ' anti-rape complex vaginas' after millions of years of coercive sex. There are species of flies whose skill is perforated by the penis of the male because the vagina cannot be accessed from the outside. After sex, the female dies after excruciating pain
Why do we accept to be part of all of this? Because of a biochemical algorithm that awards us with makes-you-happy neurotransmitters when we play right the game of massacre which is life.
We must die. It's just a question of when. Why not have control over it? In the end, after it we won't face sorrow anymore, we won't make others sorrow anymore.
Now I don't feel depressed. I feel well. Yesterday I recovered in one day 2 weeks of mathematics courses. I just think I saw clearly through the life deal, and I prefer to put morals and thoughts over chemicals.
What's your opinion?
