Why should I bother continuing to try?

[Weebster]

I'm doing a therapy that could help, but that's an hour a week. In the meantime, I'm unraveling because I can't find anything else to do with my time that I find meaningful. I used to read a lot, but I'm getting tired of it. I've watched a lot of tv and movies, but staring at a screen is not fun anymore. Driving has become expensive and I've gone to scenic spots only to feel more alone. Meeting people when you cant work is difficult. Dating apps have changed and I'm not as successful as I once was despite not looking very different.

 

[Hollowman]

I've asked myself the same thing for many years. I can't shake the pointlessness of it all.

 

[Weebster]

I've asked myself the same thing for many years. I can't shake the pointlessness of it all.

Why are we like this or is it a common thing most people just try and push out of mind?

Or is this the natural result of not having one's own family? I'm in the age group that is raising a family. I am not living in accordance with nature's design.

 

[Hollowman]

Idk I've never been able to figure myself out.

 

[Weebster]

Idk I've never been able to figure myself out.

No introspection?

 

[Hollowman]

No introspection?

Very little I'm hollow, pretty far gone :(

 

[Weebster]

Very little I'm hollow, pretty far gone :(

I'm sorry

 

[Hollowman]

I don't have a family either maybe there's something to that.

I'm sorry

Thanks, I don't have a family either maybe there's something to that.

 

[Weebster]

I don't have a family either maybe there's something to that.

Thanks, I don't have a family either maybe there's something to that.

It's probably why "deaths of despair" are occurring.

 

[Smart No More]

Have you considered doing group tasks like communal art projects or whatever? That's just one thought off the top of my head but there's tons of group meet up things you can do to meet people. Pretty sure there's a service/site called 'meet up' which allows you to opt in to tons of group activities (all or mostly strangers) based on various interests. From wine tasting to horse jelking and everything inbetween. Obviously covid does put a dampener on things like this but people are still doing it. The dice roll of who you'll meet is ever present and there's every chance many if not most will suck but surely the odds are you'll eventually meet someone that isn't completely shit. People going to those things may actually stand a chance of being more like minded than in other more generic social situations. I guess you just go by location and interests. It's bit like the first time you sign up for netflix or amazon and choose your genre interests or whatever.

Another thing I realised recently (which may benefit you) is what it was that drew me to art as a kid. I had nothing as a child. Did get some toys but generally life was shit and mostly poverish. I could draw though and looking back I remember drawing things I wanted. Trainers come to mind. I kind of got lured into aesthetics of things but came out the other side with a certain understanding for the world around me in the languages of said aesthetics and what they taught me about those that created them in the first place. In order to draw things you have to look at them in a different light and learn more than just what they look like but why. You do so instinctively as you progress into it. I kind of found myself owning things I couldn't have by drawing them. I mean drawing a steak is never going to be the same as eating one don't get me wrong but when it comes to the flow of thought and understanding you get when it's really working, there's a lot to be said for it and maybe you could find a bit of meaning for yourself in there too. I think it's something about the maneagment and organisation of a picture/drawing that really sort of gets all your mental ducks in a row and firing on all cylinders. Takes a bit of work but you can do as little or as much as suits you and it's cheap AF. Start small and work your way in from the edges. Maybe it's not for everyone but it definitely shaped my formative years and impacted my life overall. Were I not sick I'd be a very happy artist.

It gets pretty interesting when you start learning about how colour and light interact. Movement and dynamics are pretty interesting too. I guess you can kind of create a world of your own as an artist but it starts to open the world to you because artists like to compare and communicate and consumers of art like to get into your world a bit too.

 

[dreadpirateroberts69]

Dating apps have changed and I'm not as successful as I once was despite not looking very different.

Dude, I legit had the same exact problem every time I've used them post-pandemic, I used to be able to find dates somewhat easily and now it's pretty much impossible... all the pics I used were the same too...

 

[Weebster]

Dude, I legit had the same exact problem every time I've used them post-pandemic, I used to be able to find dates somewhat easily and now it's pretty much impossible... all the pics I used were the same too...

I don't know wtf is going on. Makes me pine for the opportunities I didn't go for years ago. The new generation uses the apps in an unnatural way. They just use it for validation and as a matching game like solitaire.

 

[mboo]

Because you might get better?
And not trying makes you feel worse.
Have to admit I'm not really trying.
And I'm getting worse.

 

[Weebster]

Because you might get better?
And not trying makes you feel worse.
Have to admit I'm not really trying.
And I'm getting worse.

I have tried for so long. I inch forward but then I hit a setback. Repeat

 

[mboo]

I have tried for so long. I inch forward but then I hit a setback. Repeat

Yes. But do you inch forward more than setback? Maybe it's worth keeping trying to Inch slowly
Can you work or volunteer somewhere? Might be meaningful.

 

[Britvik]

I have tried for so long. I inch forward but then I hit a setback. Repeat

It reminds me of the Myth of Sisyphus. Perhaps the moral of the story is not to get too attached to the progress and setbacks, but to focus on the effort. Take pride in things like fortitude, commitment, stamina and conscientiousness.

 

[mboo]

It reminds me of the Myth of Sisyphus. Perhaps the moral of the story is not to get too attached to the progress and setbacks, but to focus on the effort. Take pride in things like fortitude, commitment, stamina and conscientiousness. Don't give up and you'll be a shining beacon to others. We all need a bit of inspiration sometimes.

That's so poetic.

 

[Britvik]

That's so poetic.

Perhaps less so now that I deleted the last two sentences!

 

[mboo]

Perhaps less so now that I deleted the last two sentences!

It's fabulous. Love it.

 

[mboo]

I have tried for so long. I inch forward but then I hit a setback. Repeat

Yes. But do you inch forward more than setback? Maybe it's worth keeping trying move forward slowly

 

[Tristan]

It's our survival instinct that most times prevent us of doing so. My dad was away in business and he has a sports Mercedes, I could just think of the weeknd song and destroys the entire car agains a wall. Felt so tempered.

 

[whatevs]

Driving has become expensive and I've gone to scenic spots only to feel more alone.

Are you a reincarnation of Le Supreme Gentleman?