puppy9
au revoir
- Jun 13, 2019
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I decided to to stat dose my SN rather than waiting 48 hours, I've already mixed my SN in a few paper cups. At the moment that I'm close to drinking it, I chickened out. I'm just pathetic, I can't even kill myself; I'm just a pathetic loser. I don't wanna see myself alive anymore, I'm gonna be 28 in a few months, every breath reminds me of how big of a loser I am.
Last year I almost succeed my partial hanging, lost consciousness but the window grill fell off and I woke up with bruises on my head and neck.
Why it was easier to do it in the past and it's hard now? It just show how big of a loser I am.
I just wanna die, I can't take it going out feeling overwhelmed with people, it triggers my anxiety to a point I can't function, I just freeze.
Last year I almost succeed my partial hanging, lost consciousness but the window grill fell off and I woke up with bruises on my head and neck.
Why it was easier to do it in the past and it's hard now? It just show how big of a loser I am.
I just wanna die, I can't take it going out feeling overwhelmed with people, it triggers my anxiety to a point I can't function, I just freeze.