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EGR92
Student
- Jul 4, 2020
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I have been having flashbacks from physical and verbal abuse i endured as a child from my Dad. As well as traumatic experiences i went through hearing my parents arguments. My dad also beat me up at the age of 13, my mum did nothing, her Excuse is 'she wasn't there'.
At 27 during a ongoing depressive episode i spoke out to my Mum about my trauma and abuse. She didn't really say much, then left my bedroom and never returned. I was left alone after having to speak about such traumatic experiences. However she continued to go in and out of my dads bedroom talking to him.
The following morning it continued, she just wouldn't talk to me. I confronted her to be told "i was trying to control the family". I left the house and made my way to a train station with full intent of jumping infront of a train. My mum didn't text me or report me missing for over an hour. Long story short police found me and i was detained. My mum then refused to have me home so i had to go through the whole process of being assessed by mental health professionals. it was all very draining and traumatic - none of it would of had to been done if she had just allowed me to come home.
I was soon sent home. The next morning again she didn't go near me, after all I'd been through. She didn't talk to me until i confronted her.
Even though i had told her about my abuse she acted no different towards ny Dad. I had seen her show more of a reaction and more anger towards him for coming home late. My mother is a very reactive woman, she can go days without talking to someone, bang doors, cause hell. But there was nothing.
I'm so confused, she can see how unwell i am (mentally) and the pain i am in from remembering this traumatic treatment as a child but she stands by my abuser and acts as if nothing has happened? she claims to of spoken to him and been 'angry' but she continues to act totally normal with him, talking, sitting at the dinner table with him etc etc.
Me and my Mum have always been best friends, we've done everything together, shes always been my rock and main support until now. I don't know what I've done so wrong. I'm used to being hurt let down and fucked over by people before, but never my own mum and it hurts so much. I think maybe she wants me to CTB
At 27 during a ongoing depressive episode i spoke out to my Mum about my trauma and abuse. She didn't really say much, then left my bedroom and never returned. I was left alone after having to speak about such traumatic experiences. However she continued to go in and out of my dads bedroom talking to him.
The following morning it continued, she just wouldn't talk to me. I confronted her to be told "i was trying to control the family". I left the house and made my way to a train station with full intent of jumping infront of a train. My mum didn't text me or report me missing for over an hour. Long story short police found me and i was detained. My mum then refused to have me home so i had to go through the whole process of being assessed by mental health professionals. it was all very draining and traumatic - none of it would of had to been done if she had just allowed me to come home.
I was soon sent home. The next morning again she didn't go near me, after all I'd been through. She didn't talk to me until i confronted her.
Even though i had told her about my abuse she acted no different towards ny Dad. I had seen her show more of a reaction and more anger towards him for coming home late. My mother is a very reactive woman, she can go days without talking to someone, bang doors, cause hell. But there was nothing.
I'm so confused, she can see how unwell i am (mentally) and the pain i am in from remembering this traumatic treatment as a child but she stands by my abuser and acts as if nothing has happened? she claims to of spoken to him and been 'angry' but she continues to act totally normal with him, talking, sitting at the dinner table with him etc etc.
Me and my Mum have always been best friends, we've done everything together, shes always been my rock and main support until now. I don't know what I've done so wrong. I'm used to being hurt let down and fucked over by people before, but never my own mum and it hurts so much. I think maybe she wants me to CTB