CatabolicSeed
they/them
- Feb 19, 2020
- 263
I just wish for once I could be comforted, that my feelings could be prioritized JUST ONCE. Like "I'm sorry you're so miserable all the time that you're planning on offing yourself to end the pain, how can I help?" but it's never that. It's always "you being suicidal makes ME feel worried" or "you being suicidal makes ME feel unappreciated" and I know other people have just as much of a right to want to prioritize their feelings as I do, but why does it ALWAYS have to be the other person every single time!!!! I just so desperately want to be comforted, but instead I have to keep all my feelings locked up inside because if I bring up how suicidal I am then I'm making other people feel bad. So I always have to be the one who feels bad instead. At least when I CTB in 2 or 3 months it won't matter anymore.