This is where my mind is too! I think many of us wish we could just go to sleep and not wake up - that's my ideal method, haha. I don't have access to firearms. I'd try heroin or fent, but they are illegal and I don't know how I would access. OD with anything else seems likely to fail. Helium/nitrogen are difficult to access without raising alarm from house mates, expensive, and I don't have the physical ability to maneuver the tanks on my own. Can't get myself to a high enough height. Don't want to traumatize anyone like that anyway, so trains are also out. I've wandered around the house looking for anchor points and couldn't find any private enough or strong enough. Can't access illegal meds from the dark web, and I'm afraid of scams that would leave me with an unknown substance that might not be the peaceful end I seek. I keep coming back to sedating myself as best I can with what I have and going to sleep with a plastic bag, but I hear SI would likely wake me up and cause struggles and panic anyway.
Really makes me frustrated that society keeps limiting access to anything that might help with a peaceful passing. It should be an individual's choice - not up to government or healthcare to decide that we've suffered enough. I just want a peaceful way out! (or at least fast and easy - a second of pain for a reliable exit?)