I am a 35 y/o male. I have been dealing with major depression since I was about 13. My mother was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder and I grew up learning very poor ways to deal with my mental health issues. I have anxiety much of the time and daily I struggle to cope with feelings of worthlessness and inadequacy. I am a father of four, married and employed full time. On the outside I would say I do look happy healthy and sustaining well. But it is so fucking hard every day to pretend. I found this site while researching how I may look to CTB (a term found here so thank you!) I was recently diagnosed with a few moderate to severe physical disabilities that have greatly impacted my day to day life. On top of antidepressants, I am on a cocktail of pain management meds including tramadol.
I can no longer participate in the sports I loved like hockey and rugby, my ability had work has been compromised and I fear I'll be let go daily. I hang on every day in the hopes that something will just click but recently it has become more and more evident that is not going to happen. I don't want to ramble on but I did want to share because so far this group has really proven to be supportive and open, also it feels great to vent. In my readings I have been trying to find the way I want to go, where when and ultimately why. I hope I can find more answers here. Thanks all
I can no longer participate in the sports I loved like hockey and rugby, my ability had work has been compromised and I fear I'll be let go daily. I hang on every day in the hopes that something will just click but recently it has become more and more evident that is not going to happen. I don't want to ramble on but I did want to share because so far this group has really proven to be supportive and open, also it feels great to vent. In my readings I have been trying to find the way I want to go, where when and ultimately why. I hope I can find more answers here. Thanks all
