why havent you done it already?

[socksnsandles]

besides the fact that dying is scary

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

My mom and the fact that im a coward

 

[DepressedSimp]

besides the fact that dying is scary

So I have a method that I've been practicing and I guess the reason I haven't done it yet is because I'm waiting for it to get bad enough... Which could be used as motivation to finally go through with it.

 

[Hime]

Because I don't know what's real anymore. I am stuck in my own prison, my brain rotting away. The loneliness is killing me, drilling itself into me. But I stay, for my kitty...

 

[Arvayn]

Too much effort, to be honest... And there are some things that I don't want to miss out on, at the moment. Last time I tried, I chose starvation since it is a method that does itself for me and it also doesn't rouse suspicion of suicide from mental institutions. They simply just thought I was very depressed.

 

[sanrioslayer]

Im scared that i will fail and my life will become a 1000x worse than it already is. Im lowkey scared of the pain too and im very squeamishalso have chronic shame and even after death im scared of peoples opinions, and if people go through my stuff (seeing this for example) and think im a bad person

 

[Spite]

I don't really have a safe, easy, low-risk way to do it. I'd ideally like to do it via gunshot to the head, but I don't have access to guns.

 

[DeathByBananabread]

i want to see some family again just one last time

 

[ceelobling]

Because I haven't done anything with my life. I'm in my 20s, I have legit done nothing. Maybe one day I will have a story and a purpose, that's what keeping me here.

 

[gorewhoree]

Well I've been better lately but for a while I was desperate for a solution. And it boils down to I don't know how to go about it in a way that makes me reasonably certain I won't just end up in a psych ward/fucked up horribly. I don't have any money, and don't feel like getting a job to raise money just to buy a gun and die.

 

[Happy Cat]

Still waiting on a partner

 

[Carryline]

because it did not work

 

[Deepdense]

I realized that I would be hurting others around me. So now I stick to hurting myself.

 

[sanctionedusage]

too fat

 

[coldworld]

scared of how people would react, i don't want to hurt others. its always impossible to tell how family or people close to you would react to ur death. i also feel like suicide just adds the extra layer of hurt to people around you for whatever reason, makes me so so nervous and embarrassed. i also sometimes think i should just wait it out, im in my early 20s and want to see if things get any better. also if i do it, i don't want there to be an attempt. i cut myself up in the tub as a teen to try and bleed out, but we all know how that goes lmao. when i do it i wanna be sure i'll be dead. ending up messed up from an attempt also scares me a lot.

 

[Antiquated]

Apathy

 

[SanagiMezamete]

1) I have a sliver of hope that one day I might somehow be happy, and 2) There are people who would be upset by it, plus my cat who requires daily cuddles from me. If I lost those things it would require little deliberation because I'm depressed most of the time and in physical pain 24/7 on top of it.

Also it's kinda nice to indulge in alcohol with a low tolerance, for however long that will last for me. It's about the only thing that has made me feel joy the past month or two. I don't know why I didn't start doing this sooner.

 

[tretion]

for some reason random shit keeps stopping me, everytime i think im doing it something comes up

 

[somethingisntreal]

Waiting for my parents to lose hope in me

 

[inkmage333]

I failed several times already and now I want a method that'll actually work

 

[DontTouchMeImFamous]

I personally don't death is scary. For me it's about being ready. I think I'm 90% ready (mentally). Of course there are few things here and there that I would want to finish before I go, but I've reached my lowest so I don't think I would postpone my plan for them.
As to why I haven't done it yet, it's bc I didn't find the right method that would guarantee I won't survive and isn't complicated to carry out and is accessible and won't leave me a vegetable if --god forbid-- I failed.
I still don't have a solid plan. They all have a missing piece. But once I do figure one out, I'll probably act on it right away.

My current prefered methods organized by preferability:

1. Euthanasia; cons: impossible to get approved → discarded
2. Suicide pod; cons: hard to print out → discarded
3. SN, cons: hard to obtain → most probable
4. Cyanide, cons: impossible to obtain → most probable
5. Jumping, cons: hard to find the right place and will likely leave me vegetable → improbable
6. Hanging (my last resort), cons: complicated to execute and my SI would probably kick in and will likely leave me vegetable → improbable

The thing to understand about suicide is that it's mostly impulsive. It's a momentary urge. Because of that, most of the time, a solid plan with a date and all won't solidify bc SI would kick in and interfere. So, if someone isn't sure they really want to die, they shouldn't keep the means nearby.
For me, I am sure. And in order for this to work, I'd make sure the means are ready. Then, when the moment comes, I'd have everything ready to carry it out.

 

[badatparties]

Too depressed to make a plan.

 

[kuroshimi]

Don't want to really give up on life and still have some hope left. I also frightened by the fact that the life around will continue and I will not be able to experience it.

 

[lucycelestia]

besides the fact that dying is scary

I don't really have a good method. The closest I got was with partial suspension, but there I couldn't find my jugular vein, missed my window. I'm now working on getting the supplies for SN, that should work much better I hope.

 

[merlinscries]

too exhausting, scary, i dont wanna hurt my parents and i still have an inkling of hope

 

[Realog11]

Still waiting on a partner

I can be the partner what's ur method?

too fat

Yeah I'm too fat too do you think sn will work?

 

[thefarter]

don't have sn yet. but i will be ordering it in 5 days so yayyyyyy soon

 

[Forever Sleep]

Waiting for my Dad to go first.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd be long at peace if I could just simply decide to permanently cease existing as non-existence is all I want, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from this existence so torturous and every second is torture to exist.

I find it terrifying how a human can be tortured in this existence for decades longer just to face the agony of old age which is why I suffer so much from existing in this horrific world where humans have made suicide into a crime even know this existence was so tragically imposed, there's just so much evil in anti-suicide.

All that anti-suicide people do is all they can to make it so others suffer for as much as long as possible in this existence that just leads to decay and death anyway and it's just so horrific to me how these people just want others to be tortured against their wishes making this painful, deeply undesirable existence into a prison where one cannot escape, all that anti-suicide people do is just cause so much more harm and suffering, to exist in this evil world truly is a terrible punishment to me, all I want is peace from the terrible, tragic mistake of existence.

 

[dead dav]

Just can't leave my ex with all my debts so a bit stuck at present