I deal with depression and have considered suicide, even coming close to hanging myself last week. But no matter who I tell, no one seems to care that I'm on the verge of killing myself. Why is that, and how could I go on from this in the future?
HereToday
Arcanist
- Dec 27, 2019
- 437
Wow this post made me so sad, because I know how you feel. I don't think there's anything more soul crushing than telling someone (or multiple people) and them not caring. I'm sorry I can't give you any insight because I'm wondering the same thing myself. Just wanted to say you're not alone
Despondent
Archangel
- Dec 20, 2019
- 6,777
Maybe it's not that they don't care. Maybe they don't understand? I feel the same way though. I haven't told anyone that I have suicidal ideation, but I try so hard to explain what it feels like for me to have brain fog. I feel like they just don't understand, and they think that I'm "just being myself again". Meanwhile, I'm telling them because I don't feel like myself. Where the brain fog is concerned, I want someone to tell me that it's going to be okay. Even if I know it won't be. I want someone to be genuine and want to try and understand me. To try and help me and not expect me to do things alone. I'm not a needy person, I just want people to understand.
Have you tried sitting down and being as serious as you possibly can with them? Maybe they need to know that you're being dead ass serious. I'm sorry that you feel this way ❤ I understand your frustration, even if it's different for both of us :/
Have you tried sitting down and being as serious as you possibly can with them? Maybe they need to know that you're being dead ass serious. I'm sorry that you feel this way ❤ I understand your frustration, even if it's different for both of us :/
enlightened_suicide
How do you know, this isn't all a dream?
- Jan 4, 2020
- 112
... They've never been there . they cannot even come close to pretending they have felt the feelings we feel.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
We understand we care, and we are here. If you want to talk or vent, we are always here for you. 
reapandsow918
Let the waves take me
- Nov 6, 2019
- 191
TheBlackSwordsman
Student
- Apr 24, 2019
- 115
Anyone ever try a local support group. I have been looking for one in my area. Maybe it would help to speak to people in person who can relate, even if they are strangers.
Rushon
Member
- Dec 12, 2019
- 51
People around me went distant when they found out about my cancer returning, they would disappear if they knew I was suicidal.
They don't know how to deal with it. Possibly they're trying to 'be strong' for your sake, in a misguided sort of way.
Kirbster
Member
- Jan 6, 2020
- 26
Gosh, i feel this in muh soul. Honestly, ive experianced this so many times in the past its not even funny. Even with therapists and psychiatrists! And thats their job, lol! So ive learned that people will never understand what they havent experianced and even many who've experianced it dont care either. Going forward in the future-- i think it best to find people who will truly love and care for you. Forget the rest. You dont need em.
Btw if u ever need someone to talk to, you can try your hand at PMing me and many others on this site. We all share a lot of the same struggles and therefore try to treat others how we only wish others would treat us...
Anyways, im rooting for ya ❤
I can't speak for your individual interactions, but I think in some cases people just don't really know how to process it, and as a result they can come off cold
Trisolaris
Arcanist
- Dec 11, 2018
- 447
It's like someone describing hallucinating, having chronic pain, having an anxiety attack etc. to someone who hasn't experienced it. They just don't understand it.
For a normal person the topic of suicide is weird and disturbing. It's we, who desire it so much, have normalized it and feel comfortable to talk about it. What we have in this community is extremely rare, even among communities that deal with painful subjects like mental or physical illnesses.
After the reaction I got from an ex of mine when I mentioned wanting to CTB I understood there's no point in sharing suicidal feelings with others unless you desire help or you know for sure they feel the same.
For a normal person the topic of suicide is weird and disturbing. It's we, who desire it so much, have normalized it and feel comfortable to talk about it. What we have in this community is extremely rare, even among communities that deal with painful subjects like mental or physical illnesses.
After the reaction I got from an ex of mine when I mentioned wanting to CTB I understood there's no point in sharing suicidal feelings with others unless you desire help or you know for sure they feel the same.
Moonicide
ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
- Nov 19, 2019
- 802
I am so sorry, love. You must feel so alone in all of this, but we are here for you. The world can be so cruel and our cries often fall to deaf ears... You deserve to be heard and we are listening, we are here. May I ask if you're currently in treatment for your depression? Anyone you can reach out to? There are support groups as well. I understand if it may be too late for these things, but if it's something you haven't tried yet then maybe it's something to consider along the way.
Sending you all of my love and support.
Sending you all of my love and support.
I am currently not in treatment for my depression. However, I do have two friends I could possibly talk to, one being my crush.
animatriste
Member
- Oct 31, 2018
- 28
Ho anche sofferto di depressione per anni e mi sento solo. Il resto della gente non capirà mai cosa proviamo. Anchio penso a CTB
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,307
They probably don't think your serious. In their mind if you were serious about it then you would have done it already. That's what my dad told me when I told him I might have to kill myself.
animatriste
Member
- Oct 31, 2018
- 28
When we talk about CBT we are actually shouting for help from others. But we are unheard
