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LittleJem
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- Jul 3, 2019
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So I got released from psych ward (where I spent most of my time on this forum and have decided on bathtub method!). Anyway, meds doubled which means am walking down street wanting to die rather than lying in bed wanting to die. I don't know whether to plan for six months of being alive, or for longer term enduring depression. And I'd love to go now. Just hanging on not to upset people again. I don't know how to plan anything because I don't have a life worth living.
Everyone is telling me to give up drugs, like suicidal thoughts and misery are better than drugs. So today am having a beer. It tastes disgusting. Is it off? Is it the Prozac making it taste bad?
If I am going to live for longer I need to economise and plan for future. If it is only six months, then I can spend more money. If I go soon then I'll be blamed for not trying or something. I've been on this site and wanting to die for years. Confused.
Everyone is telling me to give up drugs, like suicidal thoughts and misery are better than drugs. So today am having a beer. It tastes disgusting. Is it off? Is it the Prozac making it taste bad?
If I am going to live for longer I need to economise and plan for future. If it is only six months, then I can spend more money. If I go soon then I'll be blamed for not trying or something. I've been on this site and wanting to die for years. Confused.