Discussion Why do you want to ctb?

[LifeSucks39]

I want to ctb because my fiancé left me and I have an erectile dysfunction meaning I'll never have sex again. Plus I messed up at work and I suffer from depression as well.

 

[faust]

Oh, depression really sucks. I have schizoaffective depressive type. But it is not a single reason why I want to CTB. When did you understand you actually want to die? Was it a turning point or that was rising gradually?

 

[LifeIntolerance]

Hello. I am sorry to hear that. I am a doctor and there is an option for ED called penile prosthesis if the blue pills or the injection do not help. Feel free to pm when ever you want.

 

[Steamm]

Because I lost a shitty lot of money

 

[LifeIntolerance]

Because I lost a shitty lot of money

Because I don't have money. It's only a part of my problems.

 

[Steamm]

Because I don't have money. It's only a part of my problems.

It's better to not have than have and lost it trust me

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I have a permanent injury and chronic pain and here is when I say prolifers should put "a permanent solution for a temporary problem" in their asses. There is something wrong with my body that I cant change and I cant live with.

 

[smile418]

I want to die because there is no reason for me to live. My entire experience is filled with pain and I can't endure it anymore.

 

[LifeIntolerance]

It's better to not have than have and lost it trust me

I can understand you and share your feelings :)

 

[waterbottleman]

Depression, loneliness, anxiety, boredom, living in a perpetual existential crisis where life seems pointless.

 

[StillWaiting]

Life is nothing but endless suffering?

 

[Indieblue]

Because of your username

 

[mpnf]

I have had obsessive suicidal thoughts since October but I used them only as a refuge, to make me feel better about everything, even though my situation was not bad yet, mentally. But in the middle of January after quitting the job I was in momentarily, cause I felt a bit depressed and tired I started letting myself go and spent most of my days in bed. This made me start getting more and more unconsciously negative and repetitive thoughts that lasted throughout the day and it was a nightmare. Nonstop.
After that I've been going out less, and I cant stop thinking about suicide.
I don't want to get into details about my symptoms but it's fucking my mind up. It's like I don't see life the same way anymore cause I can't think normal. I have lost the sense of laughing, and or feeling like I did before January. My mind is messed up and I know why but not really on the same term.
I can't take it anymore. But I'm also super scared after reading so many things in this forum of committing suicide. But I don't think I can continue being like this..and If I do it will be against my will. I feel so unprotected and without inner strength. I don't have my inner spirit that made me go through things. I feel like I don't have myself anymore. And I can't go through that again. For me it's hell living like this now.

 

[astro]

I suffer from schizoaffective disorder (don't know which subtype yet). That and the fact that treatment hasn't gone well at all are the only reasons I want to die. Before my life was nearly perfect.

 

[AcornUnderground]

I have a permanent injury and chronic pain and here is when I say prolifers should put "a permanent solution for a temporary problem" in their asses. There is something wrong with my body that I cant change and I cant live with.

Same here. Chronic pain and illness stole my entire life. I love when people tell me to "hang in there" and "get through it". There is no end, it's always. I can't live like this for 4-5 more decades.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Same here. Chronic pain and illness stole my entire life. I love when people tell me to "hang in there" and "get through it". There is no end, it's always. I can't live like this for 4-5 more decades.

The simple thought of knowing that I'll be like this for the rest of my life makes me feel suicidal.

 

[LifeSucks39]

Oh, depression really sucks. I have schizoaffective depressive type. But it is not a single reason why I want to CTB. When did you understand you actually want to die? Was it a turning point or that was rising gradually?

It was a turning point

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Too many reasons to list but basically a shitton of physical and mental problems.

 

[Esc9434]

Battling long-term illnesses.

Too many bad people vs good people.

Also, life is not worth the hoops you have to jump through to be happy and comfortable.

 

[mpnf]

Because I don't have money. It's only a part of my problems.

What more problems do you have? You must have good earnings according to your profession.

 

[LifeIntolerance]

What more problems do you have? You must have good earnings according to your profession.

I studied medicine in my country, was a doctor, earned good and than i changed my country. Because, I fell in love and married with a woman. Now, in this new country I can't work as a doctor at the momen. I am working as a postman since 10 months. Funny, isn't it :)

 

[Slow85]

I have schizoaffective bipolar type. I was diagnosed last year after 3 years of psychotic episodes that saw me sectioned, unable to carry out my job in the NHS and losing everything around me bar my wonderful husband.
I am a shell of the person I used to be. I'm not being supported properly by the mental health team and I'm having to fight every day to get any help and it seems pointless . I can't carry on like this. I have caused so much stress / pain / anguish to my husband , my kids don't know me anymore , I have no friends , no family , I have nothing at all .

This is the best way to ensure I don't continue to inflict this misery on everyone else

 

[Mr2005]

Because I've let my problems go on for sixteen years when they could have been over in six months

 

[Thejackal]

I miss my love.

 

[Lost4toolong]

Theres alot. But. I think the thing that finally broke me was losing my baby.

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Skull deformity wich looks like this. My case is even more severe can barely look in front of me

 

[Phinleh]

Anhedonia. The depressions bad enough but I could probably tough it out if I wasn't physically unable to enjoy anything.

 

[Tasdevil]

I want to die because of years of mental illness resulting from ptsd and also memories of my sexual assault have come back. I have wanted to die since I was a teenager so for decades now. I will CTB later this year around early June maybe sooner.

 

[ctbUniquectb]

There is only one really serious philosophical problem, Camus wrote, and that is why doesn't OP want to catch the bus?

 

[Mizzmini45]

Looks fading, no feeling loved or important anymore, life is a long pointless waiting game to die in the end. Can't do this for another 65 years