Venting why do i still miss him?

[Yume Nikki]

ive done pretty much everything. engaging in hobbies, doing art, talking to people etc. yet i feel like im not getting better, my ex still lingers at the back of my head 5 months later. i know it could probably be because of the group issues with scheduling but everything is just stressing me out. i just want to move on. i want to be happy again. and every now and then i still mourn the relationship i lost, knowing that my future will never be the same without him, how we will never go to greece together like he promised...

can something good happen in my life for once...? even if it's just one small thing?

please let me be happy