Why do i find myself regressing and turning to childhood things as the day draws closer

[notuntilperfection]

I'm behaving really strange lately, my plan is to end it by the end of this month and there have been many moments where i mentally feel like i'm 6 again. I find myself watching childhood shows like Noddy and the Tweenies and really getting into them and snuggling with a blanket, like i wanted to be a toddler so bad. It made think of spending the last week just reliving my childhood to the best of my ability and eat fruit and drink hot chocolate and behave like a child because it's actually really peaceful and cathartic in a way. I really wish i was 6 again. Im not sure why exactly, has anyone experienced something similar ?

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Yes. I can see it in myself. I'm too ashamed to mention the things I do (they're more pathetic than anything but still...). For me it's a helplessness that I've always felt, and I was about four or five when my first trauma happened. I guess I just subconsciously go back there each time I get hurt.

 

[Anonymoussn]

I think I feel this way sometimes because the nostalgia of childhood, and the simple times where I was just happy and didnt ever have to worry about responsibilities, or health issues or the future were an incredibly comforting time. That's the reason I think in that way, anyway!

 

[ghostgirl1995]

Yes this is what happened to me too. The trauma age regression.

 

[lululoo]

You're not alone. I'm a little embarrassed to elaborate though.

 

[tryingtoescape]

I do these things too. I wish I was 6 again so badly.

 

[KibblesNBits]

I can relate to this. I even cling to my stuffed animals for comfort. Something about being a kid reminds me of a time when I felt like I'd always be safe and protected. If I could be a kid again, I'd do everything so differently. I didn't fully understand how bad things can get.

 

[tryingtoescape]

I even cling to my stuffed animals for comfort. Something about being a kid reminds me of a time when I felt like I'd always be safe and protected.

I do this too!

I never knew how bad things would get either.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

Im 27 and im carrying my blue stuffed bunny (gift from husband) almost everywhere i go.. Not even ashamed anymore. Even with other people around. Sleeping with it, talking to it.. Eating with it. I guess im lonely being alone all the time now. I even plan to die with that bunny in my hands.. But that bunny cant die on me no more..

So sorry. What has life come to.

 

[GoBack]

Im 27 and im carrying my blue stuffed bunny (gift from husband) almost everywhere i go.. Not even ashamed anymore. Even with other people around. Sleeping with it, talking to it.. Eating with it. I guess im lonely being alone all the time now. I even plan to die with that bunny in my hands.. But that bunny cant die on me no more..

So sorry. What has life come to.

I have a black cat teddy that's 40 years old one eye, been everywhere with me. It's in another house right now and I miss it like a toddler would

 

[Vault of Memories]

My depression hit hard at the age of 13, so I can relate to this. I've got a lot of good memories from my childhood that I replay in my head often. I like driving by areas that are nostalgic to my youth.

 

[Deleted member 17331]

It touched me. I didn't have many good times in my childhood, but I believe that my shitty childhood is much better than the disgrace I have become.

This topic reminded me of this song:




I confess, I'm crying now.

 

[Mariomcfly]

I'm behaving really strange lately, my plan is to end it by the end of this month and there have been many moments where i mentally feel like i'm 6 again. I find myself watching childhood shows like Noddy and the Tweenies and really getting into them and snuggling with a blanket, like i wanted to be a toddler so bad. It made think of spending the last week just reliving my childhood to the best of my ability and eat fruit and drink hot chocolate and behave like a child because it's actually really peaceful and cathartic in a way. I really wish i was 6 again. Im not sure why exactly, has anyone experienced something similar ?

i think your mind is going to a time where you were happy and want to relive that once more.

 

[K-O]

Im 27 and im carrying my blue stuffed bunny (gift from husband) almost everywhere i go.. Not even ashamed anymore. Even with other people around. Sleeping with it, talking to it.. Eating with it. I guess im lonely being alone all the time now. I even plan to die with that bunny in my hands.. But that bunny cant die on me no more..

So sorry. What has life come to.

i have my bear with me too! 7 months now! always!! brush my teeth?- hes under my arm! eat? -shit spills all over him :)
best friend!
tbh even before i became suicidal i acted like a child.. never really grew up.. all my apartments always looked like a playroom hehe love it !
and heres one for all y'all shameful kids ---

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

i have my bear with me too! 7 months now! always!! brush my teeth?- hes under my arm! eat? -shit spills all over him :)
best friend!
tbh even before i became suicidal i acted like a child.. never really grew up.. all my apartments always looked like a playroom hehe love it !
and heres one for all y'all shameful kids ---

Yes, i do the same. To be honest my husband suported me in that thinking lol. I got closet full of his new plushies now, that he bought me so i can be a kid forever. But this bunny is special so he does everything with me.

 

[readytogo982]

I feel the same way sometimes. I think it's because my childhood is the last time I was actually happy. I wasn't worried about anything and could happily spend all day watching Spongebob lol.

 

[tryingtoescape]

Im 27 and im carrying my blue stuffed bunny (gift from husband) almost everywhere i go.. Not even ashamed anymore. Even with other people around. Sleeping with it, talking to it.. Eating with it. I guess im lonely being alone all the time now. I even plan to die with that bunny in my hands.. But that bunny cant die on me no more..

So sorry. What has life come to.

I sleep with my childhood stuffed animal every night. I got him as a gift when I was a baby. I carry it, sit with it beside me, watch movies with it, and sometimes even talk to it. I used to feel kind of embarrassed about it but not really anymore. It gives me a lot of comfort. The other day I was crying and I just held onto it tightly. I'm planning on taking it with me when I jump.

 

[K-O]

I got him as a gift when I was a baby

so my Scotty was my older sisters favorite polar bear! (i always wanted to play wuth him but the bitch wouldnt let me) so when she moved abroad she put in the attic so i snuck up there and stole him!!! hes been mine ever since!! YAS!!!! MINE!!!

 

[deadmalk]

I've noticed that lately for me too. I've been thinking about my childhood a lot, remembering dreams I had back then, memories that I hadn't thought of in years, just thinking of back then when I had the whole world in front of me. I think it's because of our innocence as a child. Now, I struggle to get through each day. If I could count the number of times I think about dying in one day...I don't know. I'm getting to a point where the time is soon.