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Beyond_Repair
Disheartened Ghost
- Oct 27, 2023
- 327
I have my date set. I have the stuff. I have tied up loose ends and made peace with the guilt I have been wrestling with.
And since around that time I have just felt such a sense of inner peace and a bit of numbness, but in a contented sort of way. I feel so detached from anything and I have been noticing a significant lack of anxiety that normally consumes my thoughts. I feel like I've lost myself, in the best way possible. I've been reminiscing on happy moments in my childhood that I haven't thought about in years
I am a bit confused by this (not uncomfortable though, it's been nice), since I have been feeling more free and different I wonder if that's a sign I'm changing for the better?
In reality though I know it's because I no longer have to worry about work, bills, toxic family, people in general, etc.
It's so absurd that I've felt the calmest and most content I've ever been knowing it's almost over
And since around that time I have just felt such a sense of inner peace and a bit of numbness, but in a contented sort of way. I feel so detached from anything and I have been noticing a significant lack of anxiety that normally consumes my thoughts. I feel like I've lost myself, in the best way possible. I've been reminiscing on happy moments in my childhood that I haven't thought about in years
I am a bit confused by this (not uncomfortable though, it's been nice), since I have been feeling more free and different I wonder if that's a sign I'm changing for the better?
In reality though I know it's because I no longer have to worry about work, bills, toxic family, people in general, etc.
It's so absurd that I've felt the calmest and most content I've ever been knowing it's almost over