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leavingss

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May 30, 2023
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i don't wanna post photos of myself but i basically look like a deformed, asymmetrical theda bara with an underbite. even uglier than that. there's absolutely NOTHING attractive about me. i don't even look like a girl. this is the main reason i want to ctb. i look genuinely repulsive. and the worst part is that no one cares. no one gives a fuck about me. it's like screaming into the void.

i mean it makes sense they don't care since my ugliness is genuinely irreparable (plus, i can never go back in time and live my teen years as a pretty girl instead of the teenagehood i had which borderline traumatized me).

why is there no easily accessible, painless method?? why does society make it so much more difficult for people like me to ctb even though they want every ugly girl dead? they don't even see me as human anyway..? like why do they care if i- wait nvm, i just remembered it's cause they're so scared of death🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 wittwe babies can't come to terms with their own mortality, awww.
 
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CeaseExist

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Feb 20, 2025
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Regarding title - Same bro, same...

Regarding the rest, you have my condolences, which are pretty worthless I know, but I acknowledge that you are ugly and angry. (Is it funny? are you laughing now? Let me know)

Also, yeah, the struggle is so real. People are so scared shitless of death, they are literally gaslighting each other into believing that forcing people to live life of suffering is the right thing to do, outright insane and mentally ill, sometimes I feel that people like us, on forums like this are the only sane people in the world, while all the others are the ones truly mentally sick.
 
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invokat222

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why does society make it so much more difficult
It was never easier than today to kill yourself peacefully even if there are still restrictions. That's why the awareness of the fact you are an independent enlightened human being is quite important for finding a solution.

A long time during middle ages, people wouldn't have ever dared to kill themselves voluntary due to the influence of the Christian church, and the ignorance and the disability to think freely of the most people back then. And in stone age, you wouldn't have any knowledge about ctb methods and no resources to do so.

I hope these aspects allow a different view on things.
 
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amomentspeace

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Mar 2, 2025
56
Same. I will never be a real woman or even close to pretty in any shape or form. I wish I could relive life being a pretty girl. My teenage years are gone and there's nothing to be done. I hope for the best for you.
 
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searchingforpeace

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Nov 26, 2022
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I am sure you are all beautiful don't need to be so hard on yourself
Is in society's idea of beautiful ridiculous anyway?
 
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SchrodingerIsDed

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Feb 17, 2025
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Sometimes we don't see the beauty in ourselves, but other people can.

And also beauty is not the only marker of attraction. You can be attractive while still being ugly, with the right behaviors. You can present yourself as beautiful even if you're ugly, and a lot of people will fall for it.
 
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leavingss

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May 30, 2023
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Same. I will never be a real woman or even close to pretty in any shape or form. I wish I could relive life being a pretty girl. My teenage years are gone and there's nothing to be done. I hope for the best for you.
me too :(
 
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lifeisbutadream

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Oct 4, 2018
779
This is sad. We are being tested here on earth. My aunt was what many would call ugly but she found fullfilness and happiness and married and had a very loving family. There is a nice boy for every girl who considers herself "ugly"...and even those who are acclaimed to be the most beatiful women in the world look in the mirror and think to themselves, Oh I am ugly, or, oh, I am getting old.
 
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CeaseExist

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This is sad. We are being tested here on earth. My aunt was what many would call ugly but she found fullfilness and happiness and married and had a very loving family. There is a nice boy for every girl who considers herself "ugly"...and even those who are acclaimed to be the most beatiful women in the world look in the mirror and think to themselves, Oh I am ugly, or, oh, I am getting old.
I think a nice addition to this kind of thinking would be asking oneself "who or what is testing us then", and I want to throw in that maybe it is us testing ourselves, some food for thought. I'm going to a psychiatric hospital so wish me luck, I know I'm wishing happiness for all of you <3
 
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E Butler

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Feb 6, 2025
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I sort of feel the opposite way. I've been told I'm am attractive male but looking in the mirror depresses me so much because I know how little I've achieved in spite of that.
 
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escape_from_hell

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Feb 22, 2024
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like why do they care if i- wait nvm, i just remembered it's cause they're so scared of death🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 wittwe babies can't come to terms with their own mortality, awww.
Yes. It's an act of violence to try and restrict access to exits for the less fortunate. The selfishness is from the pro-lifers. Both for their egos as you point out here in undeniable terms, and to ensure proper supply of slave labour. The lucky need the unlucky around to be high-class in comparison and to make up a bunch of bullshit about how their freewill and agency got them there and the others are therefore bad. We exist as SUPPLY. Both narcissistic supply and literal slaves.

Shakespeare knew hundreds of years ago that someone born wrong's biggest power is to deprive others the ability to lord or gloat over them:
"
I know where I will wear this dagger then;
Cassius from bondage will deliver Cassius:
Therein, ye gods, you make the weak most strong;
Therein, ye gods, you tyrants do defeat:
Nor stony tower, nor walls of beaten brass,
Nor airless dungeon, nor strong links of iron,
Can be retentive to the strength of spirit;
But life, being weary of these worldly bars,
Never lacks power to dismiss itself.
If I know this, know all the world besides,
That part of tyranny that I do bear
I can shake off at pleasure
"

- Cassius, in Shakespeare's Julius Caesar Act 1, Scene 3


It was never easier than today to kill yourself peacefully even if there are still restrictions. That's why the awareness of the fact you are an independent enlightened human being is quite important for finding a solution.

A long time during middle ages, people wouldn't have ever dared to kill themselves voluntary due to the influence of the Christian church, and the ignorance and the disability to think freely of the most people back then. And in stone age, you wouldn't have any knowledge about ctb methods and no resources to do so.

I hope these aspects allow a different view on things.
What you say it true but there are some points to consider. Biggest one: we are here in the first place. Yeah it's great to have all this enlightenment and we better be grateful we weren't born back in the day except--most of us should not have been born or put in this position. I know it's not your fault or something simply to pin on anyone, but gratitude for not being in the middle ages doesn't make us feel better about having to save up thousands of dollars to fly to Peru and beg for Nembutal or spend weeks trying to meditate and drug ourselves enough to take a shotgun in the mouth. Suicide always sounds easier than it is, I'd pay top dollar for the govt or respected organization to properly euthanize me and then it's more official and acceptable anyway.

In 2025, why aren't we being honest with those of us born shitty/wrong/ugly that hey, if you aren't born with the right set of characteristics, you are pretty much fucked, yes you have a tiny % chance at an okay-ish life but it's gonna take an immense amount of pain and suffering and hard work to even have the chance. Also, no point to get into a eugenics argument but a lot of irresponsible parents predisposed to produce children that will not prosper is allowed too easily, these parents being empowered to torture another soul without any kind of paperwork or thought process or genetic testing or consideration other than just busting a load or taking a load.

The other big point is anyone who has ever paid taxes in their life has probably more than covered the cost of their dose of pentobarbital. It should be standard issue that every citizen has it available for any point in life they decide things just aren't worth it. A birthright. Yes this is just my (extreme) opinion. It may even lead to a more peaceful world where people are cautious not to push each other too far and be more considerate of ethics and everyone's value but I doubt it (that's just my utopian wishful thinking).

Not every ugly child will turn out like Jeff Bezos. Thing with Jeff Bezos is, he is still ugly and everyone is still disgusted by him and his reputation is garbage--not because of his immoral actions (which they are, but hey it's a cutthroat world) but would the world think the same of him if he didn't look like a demonic midget phallus? He can spend all the money he wants he will never be loved and accepted by his professional prostitutes. His only hope is to live long enough to safely modify his genetic situation--there is a lot of risky experimentation to getting there. And it will always be easier to just birth new good souls vs save those of us born with the shit genes (like Jeffy); shitty attempts at a first novel are wadded up and thrown in the trash.
 
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Worndown

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Mar 21, 2019
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i don't wanna post photos of myself but i basically look like a deformed, asymmetrical theda bara with an underbite. even uglier than that. there's absolutely NOTHING attractive about me. i don't even look like a girl. this is the main reason i want to ctb. i look genuinely repulsive. and the worst part is that no one cares. no one gives a fuck about me. it's like screaming into the void.

i mean it makes sense they don't care since my ugliness is genuinely irreparable (plus, i can never go back in time and live my teen years as a pretty girl instead of the teenagehood i had which borderline traumatized me).

why is there no easily accessible, painless method?? why does society make it so much more difficult for people like me to ctb even though they want every ugly girl dead? they don't even see me as human anyway..? like why do they care if i- wait nvm, i just remembered it's cause they're so scared of death🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 wittwe babies can't come to terms with their own mortality, awww.
You might not think this is a good answer, but it is true. Beauty is internal. Yes, we see the outside, but we talk to the inside. There are plenty of very attractive people out there that abdolutely suck as humans. Worthless life forms taking up space.
We do not see you, only hear you. Lets get to know you and let the inner beauty be experienced.
 
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divinemistress36

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Beauty fades though. Attractive people will eventually get old and wrinkly unless they die young.
 
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amomentspeace

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Mar 2, 2025
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Attractive people will eventually get old and wrinkly unless they die young.
Attractive or not, that's the plan. Dementia and Alzheimer's scares me too much to let me get to an advanced age. Also just the thought of my body not being capable anymore. Being able bodied is a temporary condition. I just wish I could've felt pretty while I was here
 
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LittleNelson

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Dec 18, 2021
17
I can completely relate to what you're going thru. I wasn't born pretty and I've struggled with weight problems and acne my entire life. The biggest and most painful lesson I've learned is that you are always judged by your appearance and beautiful people have easier lives. I don't think I would suffer so much if I had been born beautiful.
 
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bun

Mar 4, 2025
9
I understand this, so much, i hope you don't ctb without knowing that you are perceived very differently, i think of you very fondly and i will have you in my heart . i empathize with you a lot, i waisted my youth and i took my teenage years for granted, no matter what you choose i hope you find your peace ♡
 
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EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
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You might not think this is a good answer, but it is true. Beauty is internal. Yes, we see the outside, but we talk to the inside. There are plenty of very attractive people out there that abdolutely suck as humans. Worthless life forms taking up space.
We do not see you, only hear you. Lets get to know you and let the inner beauty be experienced.
Okay, but what about us who are lacking both on the outside and on the inside? Easy to say "It's what is on the inside that counts" when you don't bother taking into consideration the fact that not everyone is necessarily going to respect you for your other traits.

Plus, generally being attractive comes with the bonus of people being biased in your favour. We tend to assume that those who are attractive also possess positive qualities and we tend to go much easier on them when it comes to judging their character. Hence why attractive individuals tend to get away with shit more easily overall.
 

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