Help Why cant i do anything

[Gorgon]

I have to pack up her room, I just cant. We are moving and the whole time i have just sat here. My partner has done everything which makes it all worse. They have almost the whole house packed I just wont let them go in there. I feel useless and pathetic. I cant even look at her room without crying. It's been 3 years now. 3 miserable years. I've tried everything counciling, good friends, a good job, fuck I even have money. But none of it made it better. Nothing can make it better and I dont think I wanna try to anymore but i still cant bring myself to die. I fucking hate the torture of it all. I have a gun i have ropes I have poison but I dont have the guts. What do I do?!? I need to die very very soon please help me please

 

[Hotsackage]

Not sure we can do to help except wish you luck and peace in any decision you make.

 

[Katerina]

Whose room is it? Can your partner not help you do it

 

[Gorgon]

My baby

 

[Empty Smile]

My baby

I'm getting the feeling your baby passed? That's the way I'm understanding this.

 

[Gorgon]

Yeah

 

[Empty Smile]

I'm so sorry. I know that has to be the hardest thing for a parent.

I can't say I know how you feel, because I'd be lying. My own kid is 27.

The closest I can relate is the ex-girlfriends daughter who was killed in a wreck at 13, but I knew her since she was an infant. And the feeling was extremely unbearable because I still considered her my daughter.

I suck at trying to find the right words for things like this, but I hope you find peace and comfort.