Why can I only feel like myself when drunk...

[DesperateOne]

Every so often I turn to alcohol for help, and when I do and down a few beers I start feeling like myself. Its a surreal feeling that I never had before in my life (or at least I don't remember of having)... When I'm sober I'm this hollow thing called a human being without any emotions or identity, but when I drink this whole new world opens up to me and I can finally feel my emotions, I can feel what I like and don't like, I get the urge to clean my room, I get the urge to update my clothing and start socializing more, I get interested in a whole bunch of topics and professions, I can finally connect with other people and empathize with their feelings.

The next day when I wake up I'm this hollow sort of selfish human being again that can't feel and can't do anything, but scroll and play video games... Why is that? I think I've been like this ever since childhood...

 

[hikikomorizombie]

coming from a line of addicts, substances typically turn u into the person u want to be, which is usually what causes the addiction. or @ least a big factor. as for the actual scientific reasoning behind it, idk. it's def interesting though.

i think it might be bc the drug takes the place of where the joy/want for life is supposed to be, & if that part of you's long since gone, it prob just seems like a completely new feeling. i also think you're more susceptible to it if drug problems run in ur fam.

 

[DesperateOne]

coming from a line of addicts, substances typically turn u into the person u want to be, which is usually what causes the addiction. or @ least a big factor. as for the actual scientific reasoning behind it, idk. it's def interesting though.

Thanks hiki zombie haha... Even though I don't know you and you pop in a few times in my venting threads, I appreciate you <3

 

[Mirrory Me]

I don't think there's necessarily anything bad about it if you stay within the limits of moderate use, sometimes it's just difficult to live in mental stagnation, because alcohol makes the flow more fluid. I wonder what could work in a similar way...

 

[DesperateOne]

I don't think there's necessarily anything bad about it if you stay within the limits of moderate use, sometimes it's just difficult to live in mental stagnation, because alcohol makes the flow more fluid. I wonder what could work in a similar way...

I've heard that some people replace alcohol with Kratom which I think is legal in most of the western world. It's like a plant that you can grow in your backyard lol, bust most just buy it in pill form... Some people also go for Kava kava which gives you a relaxing effect. Never tried these two before though...

I saw this Rogan clip pop in my recommendation once:

He said that it's like an opiate that you can't get addicted to and gives you normal functioning. People in the comments were saying that they use it for focus, depression, PTSD and all kinds of other stuff.

 

[Aim]

How often are you drink? It numbs feelings

 

[DesperateOne]

How often are you drink? It numbs feelings

Maybe like once or twice a week. I would love to drink more, but my body just doesn't allow it even though I'm 23. It treats alcohol like I'm an old man, so I can't go for binge drinking.

 

[Aim]

Oh well, well then I guess the answer to your question is alkohol numbs feelings then. Take care! Seek help if you can.

 

[Mirrory Me]

I've heard that some people replace alcohol with Kratom which I think is legal in most of the western world. It's like a plant that you can grow in your backyard lol, bust most just buy it in pill form... Some people also go for Kava kava which gives you a relaxing effect. Never tried these two before though...

I saw this Rogan clip pop in my recommendation once:

He said that it's like an opiate that you can't get addicted to and gives you normal functioning. People in the comments were saying that they use it for focus, depression, PTSD and all kinds of other stuff.

Kratom is said to be addictive. In addition to addiction, the substance develops tolerance, which means that it cannot be used regularly, and also it does not seem to ultimately lead to a more progressive life.



The same channel also talks about microdosing, which would be exciting to try out due to its claimed benefits.

 

[DeadManLiving]

Every so often I turn to alcohol for help, and when I do and down a few beers I start feeling like myself. Its a surreal feeling that I never had before in my life (or at least I don't remember of having)... When I'm sober I'm this hollow thing called a human being without any emotions or identity, but when I drink this whole new world opens up to me and I can finally feel my emotions, I can feel what I like and don't like, I get the urge to clean my room, I get the urge to update my clothing and start socializing more, I get interested in a whole bunch of topics and professions, I can finally connect with other people and empathize with their feelings.

The next day when I wake up I'm this hollow sort of selfish human being again that can't feel and can't do anything, but scroll and play video games... Why is that? I think I've been like this ever since childhood...

Exact same, except for me it's Benzos. Ever since childhood. There is absolutely definitely something that our brains were born missing or receptors in the gaba complex not formed correctly that required self-medicating chemically to rectify. Like a transistor, the majority of people were born in some default state of normalcy, consuming alcohol or anything that affects the GABBAA complex produces just a psycho active response. In my or our cases the transistor was in the non default haywire short circuit or open circuit position and taking alcohol or consuming benzos mitigates the experience of life back to 'normal" or default. Why is this? Is the question I've been asking the past 32 years.