Q-Dust
Am literally a rhododendron
- Jun 9, 2019
- 51
I know is going to work, I can feel it working but every time I do it I just chicken out there's always this primal fear I can't even disprove what I'm so afraid of. logically I know commuting CBT is my best choice but I just can't go through with it. is like I'm just LARPing about wanting to die every day I bitch about my life except when I can finally end it I suddenly get cold feet for no good reason, I'm dreading something I have to do in the next few weeks but somehow that isn't enough for me to finally grow a spine for once in my fucking life. I don't even know how I feel about myself right now is like I still have this scared little kid that is still hoping for some miracle to happen which is keeping me from ending it all. If someone has any tips I can use to find the strength to do it I'm all ears because I'm too cowardly to do anything more than merely complain about how much life is shit