Venting Why bother anymore?

[AnnonyBox]

I'm so sick and tired of trying to make my life better. I'm such an idiot for waiting yet another year, and realizing nothing has changed, like it always has been. I even started seeking out information on the internet, to basically be my own therapist, and all it did was take the edge off of reality, until everything came crashing down as usual. At least I figured out where my carotid arteries are this year. I don't want to live to see 2020.

 

[mediocre]

I feel the same I've continued to decline mentally and physically. I've also been using the internet trying to self-diagnose myself which is impossible... 2020 is coming and it makes me sick I don't want to enter another decade of pain...

 

[Flume]

I feel the same I've continued to decline mentally and physically. I've also been using the internet trying to self-diagnose myself which is impossible... 2020 is coming and it makes me sick I don't want to enter another decade of pain...

My thoughts of death started in 2010, I feel you.

 

[Scooby-Doo]

I'm so sick and tired of trying to make my life better. I'm such an idiot for waiting yet another year, and realizing nothing has changed, like it always has been. I even started seeking out information on the internet, to basically be my own therapist, and all it did was take the edge off of reality, until everything came crashing down as usual. At least I figured out where my carotid arteries are this year. I don't want to live to see 2020.

Maybe try seeing a therapist and see how that goes. At least try and seek help and if it doesn't work then ctb. You can ctb at anytime a few days won't make much difference. I just think you tried to get better on your own and this isn't something you can fix alone. Just my honest thoughts after reading your post.

 

[AnnonyBox]

Maybe try seeing a therapist and see how that goes. At least try and seek help and if it doesn't work then ctb. You can ctb at anytime a few days won't make much difference. I just think you tried to get better on your own and this isn't something you can fix alone. Just my honest thoughts after reading your post.

I'd rather not have another useless perscription of pills I have to choke down so that medical tests can all say I'm 'fixed.' I'd rather not give anyone cause to go snooping through my stuff to find a reason to tell me I'm abnormal. I've seen enough people on this site be unethically detained by therapists. If I can't fix myself then nobody can. I realize I should give it more time, but ultimately I feel like that's just another excuse to chicken out of going through with it all.

 

[Mr2005]

I'd like to see 2020 just not for another fifteen years

 

[Sensei]

I'd rather not have another useless perscription of pills I have to choke down so that medical tests can all say I'm 'fixed.'

Pills can never fix you. What they can do is give you some time to breathe and sort things out. That's worth a lot.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Pills can never fix you. What they can do is give you some time to breathe and sort things out. That's worth a lot.

You've got that right. But the medical system in most countries is a revolving door. Therapy is mostly pointless too as you're basically paying someone to fill you with platitudes.

In the end we can only ever fix ourselves which is probably what you were also alluding to.

 

[Sensei]

You've got that right. But the medical system in most countries is a revolving door. Therapy is mostly pointless too as you're basically paying someone to fill you with platitudes.

Depends on the context. As you point out, it depens on which country you're in and how well psychiatric care works there. It also depends on whether your problems are psychological, clinical and/or chemical, so to speak. For instance, someone who has broken up from a relationship will probably get better if their life situation improves; someone suffering from major depressive disorder might be cured by psychotherapy; someone suffering from schizophrenia can't be cured and must take medicines.

In the end we can only ever fix ourselves which is probably what you were also alluding to.

Agreed. Unless it's an uncurable illness. Then we have to rely on what psychiatry can offer.

 

[Scooby-Doo]

I'd rather not have another useless perscription of pills I have to choke down so that medical tests can all say I'm 'fixed.' I'd rather not give anyone cause to go snooping through my stuff to find a reason to tell me I'm abnormal. I've seen enough people on this site be unethically detained by therapists. If I can't fix myself then nobody can. I realize I should give it more time, but ultimately I feel like that's just another excuse to chicken out of going through with it all.

What ever decision you make is a brave one. Your no chicken if you decide to have another go at life. I have a cpn and I've said I've suicidal thoughts but not acted on them. I think that's best thing to say to a therapist so they don't section you. In regard to medication it's your choice whether you take it or not.