Why are you on this site?

[Escape_Reality]

So why are you on this site? For me I cannot talk to anyone around me about how I feel, the daily grind of life has me worn down & like everyone else I have my own deep rooted problems. My regrets and the poor decisions I've made are on my mind everyday.

Finding this site by accident I've found lots of useful info and there seems to be a lot of understanding people on here...I find the concept of CTB perplexing and I want to understand more before I determine if it is really my only option..It's what I want but I am trying to get my head around the fact that once we are gone that's it. Will I miss the pain and anguish of the life I lead no...But will I miss the feeling of being alive, the warmth of the sun on my face..The little things in life...It's hard..Drop a few lines if you want to share anything.

 

[StillWaiting]

Here because I can't find people who are willing to take time to listen to me.

Most people I tried to reach out to brush me off after awhile but this site is always filled with friendly and kind people. This site is always a place I will come back to whenever I can't find anywhere to go.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I'm on this website to find out about methods for ctb. And this site has helped me immeasurably.
I hadn't heard about SN and some of the other methods before finding SS.

Also some posters validated a lot of my philosophy.

But mainly i'm on here to learn about methods. I owe a big thanks to the owners , admin , staff and mods on this site. As far as i can tell they do it for no pay for free (no ads etc). SanctionedSuicide.com literally saved me . I just feel sorry for the many millions out there in the wilderness who haven't found this website as i hadn't for a few years. they are alone suffering not knowing how to find a painless ending to their horrible problems

I would like to know who set this website up and who maintains it etc. Thank you to whoever you are you are providing an invaluable service that is nowhere else out there in the world.

 

[Thereisnothing]

Have no support in outside world. Am grieving, lost the last person who loved and cared about me in December, alone now. have hideous multiple health problems, which impede my life a lot and getting worse, making me more scared, especially now totally alone. Noone likes to think/talk about/discuss suicide, you just get told not to be stupid, attention seeking, blah, blah, blah.......This site is incredibly helpful and comforting to me. Some beautiful and caring souls here and although it obviously doesn't change my situation and pain, it helps to have those who listen and advise, share their problems and listen. I am still searching for a suitable method for myself. Due to my health I have very few options and don't like a lot of them anyway as seem so violent. Wish could find a very peaceful way. I owe it to myself to go peacefully and with no extra physical pain, as have suffered enough.

 

[issyishere]

I hate being in the dark alone. I feel somewhat better knowing other people are going through the same thing. I love that we can all support eachother here. I love that I can openly talk about my intentions here. This site helps me when my chronic pain is flaring up and im buckled over in bed. It's a great place for someone like me and I love reading what everyone has to say.

 

[rntmss]

Needed a place to read more about different methods. Overdosing on Diphenhydramine and Alcohol didn't work for me when I last tried (cops thought I was tripping out on mushrooms and was back home after a night in the hospital) and I'm scared shitless of h2s

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I'm here because .... wait where are we again?

 

[-Link-]

I have nothing else left in me. I continue existing for my family, but have no life left in me.

I'm here primarily to keep an eye on my preferred methods and their availability, and secondarily because this is the only place (apparently anywhere in existence) where you can openly talk about this without censorship and having the usual platitudes thrown at you.

 

[AlreadyGone]

To research ctb methods

 

[Escape_Reality]

I'm here because .... wait where are we again?
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Was getting deep reading some of these heartfelt messages but this one made me laugh Thankyou hahaha been there many a time
Thanks to everyone who has written something the insight is appreciated.

 

[TAW122]

I'm on this site mainly because I find community with like-minded individuals who share many common sentiments together in regards to the freedom of choice, the right to die, and also people who can talk about CTB, death, and other topics without judgment or censorship. Also, I like reading about methods as well as giving some feedback on various methods. Who knows, it is possible that I may use a different method to CTB if for whatever reason or cause that I am unable to execute my current method (which is to CTB via firearm). Hopefully that never happens and that I'm able to use my original method (the firearm) as that is the most reliable and the one I have most confidence in.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Thanks to everyone who has written something the insight is appreciated.

No, thank you for posing the question. It's been asked before but it's good to be reminded at times.

 

[mesohappy]

Seems like a lot of folks come here by accident and when they arrive they are desparate,miserable and hurting.Ready to dive into the abyss right away.But then they end up calming down a little the longer they look around and hang out.This place is tricky like that.I would have the same problems/issues whether I would have found this place or not.But Im pretty sure finding it has kept me around a little longer and has taken a bit of the edge off.Maybe stifled the smell of the shithole that I am in slightly and more importantly,caused me to think.I am grateful for it,and wish everyone on here peace and comfort.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

I am here because its the only place I can actually find comfort in this time, I have recently got more brave (as in last few days) and accepting private messages and will now chat privately, even though it is a struggle, but I find it calming here, people who understand, people all in a place that normal society does not deem acceptable, being here I kinda feel normal!

 

[BrokenConk3r]

I'm on this site mainly because I find community with like-minded individuals who share many common sentiments together in regards to the freedom of choice, the right to die, and also people who can talk about CTB, death, and other topics without judgment or censorship. Also, I like reading about methods as well as giving some feedback on various methods. Who knows, it is possible that I may use a different method to CTB if for whatever reason or cause that I am unable to execute my current method (which is to CTB via firearm). Hopefully that never happens and that I'm able to use my original method (the firearm) as that is the most reliable and the one I have most confidence in.

Having a freaking Shotgun Must be really fucking cool , Quick and reliable death, i envy u so much.

 

[HannahB]

As the Buddhists would say "because you asked me to be"

 

[Lady black]

To find people that I can talk to without them thinking I´m just a drama queen, cause every problem can bei fixed intheir eyes. And may be to find someone to leave this world with.

 

[nirvana133]

Because im tired of being lied to with pro-life shit, and the same cliches of "its going to get better". That shit gets annoying when your in a hopeless situation. I'm glad i found this site.

 

[Escape_Reality]

All your replies are absolutely everything I was looking for, you guys are awesome..That's the beauty of this forum it seems...There are others willing to listen but if you are thinking about leaving you can discuss it openly and not be judged for it.

 

[Eren]

I entered this site for the first time a long time ago, I was in a fairly strong crisis, although today it is not very stable. Basically I entered this site because there are no more non-pro-life websites that talk about suicide, also to look for methods etc ...

I wish nobody had to resort to this, but it is really reassuring to know that there is a website like this where I can speak freely.

 

[voyager]

Found the website looking into a method (think exit bag or something along those lines), lurked a while, but ultimately signed up because of the community. Could relate to so many things people wrote on here, and that gave me great comfort and validation after being alone with my thoughts for such a long time while constantly having them disputed by everyone on the outside. Very much appreciate this place, it's open-mindedness and everyone here.

 

[sadgirl2002]

I'm here because no one in the real world understands. There's no point in talking to those around me anymore because they will never understand and I always end up feeling drained or I regret talking in the first place. I feel like no one cares, whenever I talk about the pain I've been through, I'm only told that I have to "stop thinking about it", "worry about my future" and all the other nonsense I'm told which irritates me to the core. My life has been nothing but constant pain. I hate pro-lifers and their stupid arguments and this is the only website where people won't judge you. At least on this forum, we have the one common thing of wanting to die and we can connect. It's like SS is one big family. I'm able to be open in how I feel and I find solace here. I've met such lovely people on here as opposed to the scum humans I've been around throughout my life. Suicide has been on mind all my life and I've fantasised about it constantly. I'm still here, waiting to see what the near future holds. If things don't work out the way I want them to, I'll definitely end my life. I'm glad to be on this forum with people who truly care.

 

[Cave Johnson]

I found this site on a deliberate search to find somewhere like this after I told my mother I hated living and wanted it to end. She replied with "you only hate your life because X, once that's fixed you'll be happy again." Apparently she doesn't listen, because for years I've told her I don't even remember what feeling happy feels like.I haven't been actually happy in close to a decade, and I needed to figure out decent methods that'll help me overcome SI easier than a knife to the wrist.

 

[Lulaulk]

A mis 26 años lo único que quiero es dejar de respirar, no es normal que desde los 14 o 13 tenga todos los días el mismo pensamiento no? Ya estoy arreglando todos mis pendientes, el único problema que tengo es que funcione al 100 por eso estoy aquí, leerlos, no equivocarme, después de todo tengo miedo, miedo de fallar.

 

[Squiddy]

I'm here because no one outside of SS really understands just how I feel and how much I want to ctb.

 

[one4all]

I'm here for the pizza and Wings!

 

[enjoy]

originally joined because losing my ex drove me to almost ctb. i'm now in therapy (very slow process and long waitlist, so i've only been to the consultation so far) but i still really miss her and i know that there are likeminded people on this site that are feeling pain similar to mine.

after joining the site, i was kicked out of my university which just made matters worse and made me want to ctb more. my friends are all i really have left now that my ex is gone because when i was still dating her, i made her the most important thing in my life and basically told all my old friends to fuck off. i met all my current friends at university after my ex dumped me and they've been mostly supportive (though one has been a total dick about my mental health).

i dunno what's gonna happen next, but i do know i'll be leaving ss on march 1st to focus on recovering. my friends know i wholeheartedly wanted to ctb back in january and were really worried. i felt bad because i put them all in a situation where they couldn't tell anyone what i was probably going to do. now, i want to get better. i want to forget about my ex, work on getting readmitted to my school and focus on how much all my friends mean to me.

it'll be a bumpy ride, but believe it or not... ss helped me a lot. i think i would've been long dead if i hadn't joined this site.

 

[Dystopic_Momento]

I was here for the methods and questions about the methods, until I picked one. I'm here now because there's more freedom of speech and community. No one here will think you're ---fill in the blank for anything basically meaning "bad" here--- when you say you plan to do it and no one will try to stop you. It means I don't have to feel completely cut off before I go. Oddly this site restores my faith in humanity, just a portion of humanity that's got one foot out the door. These are the last days we live.

A mis 26 años lo único que quiero es dejar de respirar, no es normal que desde los 14 o 13 tenga todos los días el mismo pensamiento no? Ya estoy arreglando todos mis pendientes, el único problema que tengo es que funcione al 100 por eso estoy aquí, leerlos, no equivocarme, después de todo tengo miedo, miedo de fallar.

(Usé Google traducen/translate) De 13 y 14 a 26 es mucho tiempo para estar en la desesperación. Le deseo bien.

 

[BrokenConk3r]

A mis 26 años lo único que quiero es dejar de respirar, no es normal que desde los 14 o 13 tenga todos los días el mismo pensamiento no? Ya estoy arreglando todos mis pendientes, el único problema que tengo es que funcione al 100 por eso estoy aquí, leerlos, no equivocarme, después de todo tengo miedo, miedo de fallar.

Es normal tener miedo a equivocarse. , Después de todo el daño de un intento no es broma. Cuáles son tus motivos para estar así desde tan corta edad ? ( Sorry si es muy insensible preguntar , no tienes que responderme si no quieres)

 

[voyager]

A mis 26 años lo único que quiero es dejar de respirar, no es normal que desde los 14 o 13 tenga todos los días el mismo pensamiento no? Ya estoy arreglando todos mis pendientes, el único problema que tengo es que funcione al 100 por eso estoy aquí, leerlos, no equivocarme, después de todo tengo miedo, miedo de fallar.

I'm here because I can't learn Spanish.

(Usé Google traducen/translate) De 13 y 14 a 26 es mucho tiempo para estar en la desesperación. Le deseo bien.

I could do that, I really could, but it's not the same.

So why are you on this site? For me I cannot talk to anyone around me about how I feel, the daily grind of life has me worn down & like everyone else I have my own deep rooted problems. My regrets and the poor decisions I've made are on my mind everyday.

Finding this site by accident I've found lots of useful info and there seems to be a lot of understanding people on here...I find the concept of CTB perplexing and I want to understand more before I determine if it is really my only option..It's what I want but I am trying to get my head around the fact that once we are gone that's it. Will I miss the pain and anguish of the life I lead no...But will I miss the feeling of being alive, the warmth of the sun on my face..The little things in life...It's hard..Drop a few lines if you want to share anything.

So, yeah, can't do what I want, not even sure what I want anymore or if I want anything at all, and am no longer willing to comprimise for a lacklustre substitute.

That's what ultimately led me here.