I just want death thats it
Highly unlikely every day is the worst.
Not sure what that Healer was on, but I don't think he or she is correct...
Our natural state is of happiness/well being, that is why we don't want to have depression or anxiety or fight our own thoughts because it is not a natural state to us.
You are positive energy itself otherwise how could you even live/exist?
Negative energy would just destroy itself, wouldn't it?
Even the most evil people you can think of... let's say Hitler... even he was good to his dog, and his small circle of government friends (sorry I forgot the proper word in English), and wanted good for his family, even if his intentions weren't the best for almost everything else...
If you meditate you notice you can be conscious of negative energy, and if you are conscious of it, then it means you are not it, because you are like a scientist in a lab, observing with his equipment (in this case the tool is awareness/consciousness), the object (in this case "bad energy").
So I say that Healer is wrong, and if he can't do anything to "heal", then he really isn't a healer, is he?
There might be proper healer in this world who care, who use a diverse of methods to heal people, like natural plants, meditation, etc, but those are rare indeed.
For me Solfeggio frequencies (pure tones) help when I'm really fucked up , or you can just check this guy on YouTube, his channel is "Healing Vibrations", he's pretty good.
Some people will not believe, but Mudras help, specially the Gyan Mudra, will make you very aware/conscious, there are other beneficial mudras...
Plant medicine is alright. I haven't explored that too much. Some people report success with Ayahuasca and shrooms. For others, less intense plants like Cat's claw, Hypericum Perforaetum, Rhodiola Rosea, and others seem to help.
Sorry I just got kinda mad at that supposed "healer". He's not really one if he can't do anything and and has wrong knowledge. Some proper shaman in the Amazon would have done better, but you probably don't need to go that far...