Discussion Who here has tried tourniquet?

[nihilist_fool]

I did a few dress rehearsals for tourniquet and wow, it is so much easier on paper. If I ordered some SN, then while it would be scary as all hell (for me and whoever finds me), but it would be relatively painless. I have somewhat low blood pressure and orthostatic hypotension so it would probably be even quicker than 20mins.

But tourniquet... tightening it is a very direct act of harm against oneself. It's somewhat frightening being one turn away from lights out. I don't know how to push through the survival instinct and avoid the pain. Has anyone considered tourniquet but can't quite do it for similar reasons, not for the inability to do the compression properly? Or experiencing similar attitudes towards other methods eg hanging.

 

[theguineapigking]

I am going for partial suspension hanging. I know what you mean. For me,it's just a few more seconds to collapse from weak legs then pass out.(using standing partial suspension position) It's so hard to get past the fear of passing out,knowing that once you pass out,you're helpless. You just have to hope the method succeeds basically.



I think the only true reason I haven't done it yet is because of my family though. But the fear of passing out and being one step away is really hard to overcome. For me,I just try to relax and think about how much I hate life. If it wasn't for my family,id like to think I'd be dead now.


Are you hellbent on suicide? Or are you practicing so that you know that you have an "out" ?

Especially using the ratchet or tourniquet method is very scary at the last step. Some people say alcohol or sleeping meds can relax you a bit and make it easier to go through with it. Just be sure you're positive that you want to die before you do that. If you don't fully want to die but drink a bunch of alcohol,it's possible you'll just do it. Just make sure you're in your right mind when you decide that you're sure you definitely do or don't want to die(if you haven't definitely decided already).



If you want to talk,I'm here until I'm not. Just reply to my post if you need someone to talk to.

I wish you peace and good luck should you go through with anything in the meantime.

 

[nihilist_fool]

I am going for partial suspension hanging. I know what you mean. For me,it's just a few more seconds to collapse from weak legs then pass out.(using standing partial suspension position) It's so hard to get past the fear of passing out,knowing that once you pass out,you're helpless. You just have to hope the method succeeds basically.



I think the only true reason I haven't done it yet is because of my family though. But the fear of passing out and being one step away is really hard to overcome. For me,I just try to relax and think about how much I hate life. If it wasn't for my family,id like to think I'd be dead now.


Are you hellbent on suicide? Or are you practicing so that you know that you have an "out" ?

Especially using the ratchet or tourniquet method is very scary at the last step. Some people say alcohol or sleeping meds can relax you a bit and make it easier to go through with it. Just be sure you're positive that you want to die before you do that. If you don't fully want to die but drink a bunch of alcohol,it's possible you'll just do it. Just make sure you're in your right mind when you decide that you're sure you definitely do or don't want to die(if you haven't definitely decided already).



If you want to talk,I'm here until I'm not. Just reply to my post if you need someone to talk to.

I wish you peace and good luck should you go through with anything in the meantime.

My family is my biggest prevention as well. I'm their only child which would exacerbate their grief. Otherwise besides the fear of becoming a vegetable and extreme pain I'm good to go. I've been suicidal for most of my adolescence and young adult life so I guess I'm waiting for one more straw to outweigh family.

I'll keep the alcohol in mind as a way to ease things during the method. Thank you for the response.

 

[theguineapigking]

Hey. No problem.


I also fear becoming a vegetable. Luckily though,my family would put me down if it came to that. But some people, for whatever reason,believe life is still worth it as a vegetable. Hopefully your parents would do you mercy if it came to that.



I'm also waiting to be pushed over the edge. I almost did with my brother getting his drivers license. I'm 21 and don't drive due to fatigue and medical issues. He's 17 and already drives. I almost decided to end it a couple of nights ago. Why didn't I do it!!???? It's so hard to take the last step.



Good luck to you. May you find peace :)

 

[dyingtodie]

I totally relate to the difficulty of this final act. I love myself and don't want to do any type of self harming action, yet I love myself, and desire to leave Earth, and it seems to be the only way. I haven't purchased gas, because I imagine doing so will be like buying junk food at the store...once I've bought it, it's going to get eaten, and so I imagine it would be with Gas, an exit bag seems too easy...and, as a Yogi, I don't want to have foreign substances in me at my death. I think starving is more difficult and painful than hanging, and food is one of the few things keeping me here. Tourniquet or partial however, could still be accomplished peacefully in theory as I've gotten close to the 'dizzy' point required for passing out, without much fear or discomfort, I just was doing a dress rehearsel at the time though, so I knew I could be out at my choosing. But yeah, being tethered to a belt or rope and helpless after passing out is truly a scary thought, the scariest thought being that of being 'rescued' and possibly ending up a vegetable which would be a fate far worse than being suicidal. I've thought that sitting in meditation in a shallow stream and just tightening a ratcheting belt til I fall face first into the water might be a good method. I'm not tethered and could in theory untighten the belt. And, if that doesn't kill me then I'd drown. The other way is going on a very cold night, with minimal clothing, so that hypothermia gets me if I somehow 'survive' in a half dead state after passing out.

Also, a turkey roasting plastic bag is good to tuck underneath the rope to ensure that the brain stem does not survive. I think it can be full of air to reduce discomfort, but should not allow more air in!

All the best and sorry for anyone in such a situation where this post is relevant! Blessings.