Who else has unbearable daily anxiety?

[tryingtoescape]

I've heard people say before "anxiety attacks can't last forever. They will eventually calm down." But my anxiety is literally constant and unbearable. I wake up in the morning, and I instantly have a panic attack. The physical symptoms are so strong. TMI warning. Heart pounding, intense nausea, diarrhea (I have to literally run to the bathroom the moment I wake up) vomiting, dry heaving, shaking.

It goes on like that all day, with waves of overwhelming anxiety. I've existed like this for years. It's so horrible. I just want it to stop. Medication doesn't help. It's like I'm trapped. It feels like I'm hell.

It's another reason I get so angry when people say "suicide isn't the answer!" When I have an incurable illness (tinnitus) and when I have anxiety so bad that I vomit and have other physical symptoms from the moment I wake up to the moment I take enough sleeping aids to sleep and no medication has help, and I've suffered like this for 5 years with things only getting worse, how dare they? There is no other way. Everything they suggest is for mild anxiety or depression. My depression doesn't make me literally vomit the second I wake up. The overwhelming waves of anxiety do. I don't have access to my method right now. If I wasn't so traumatized by the psych ward, I'd try another method, but I can't risk surviving so I need to wait. I'm in so much anguish daily. I want it to end so badly. Does anyone have this level of daily severe nonstop anxiety?

 

[I screwed up]

Me too .. Mornings are the worst as you said ... I feel your pain my friend

 

[suicidaltoad]

This has been me since Sunday. I wonder if I died and went to hell sometimes

 

[Meditation guide]

I have constant anxiety, it's hard not to when you always are in pain.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I think that my anxiety isn't as bad as yours because I don't really get panic attacks or those other physical symptoms that you experience. I get moderate physical symptoms when I'm doing something new or that I'm frightened of like a job interview and I do find those quite unbearable. I worry all the time and occasionally I dip into a panicked state but I don't think those are full blown panic attacks, and I don't get physical symptoms unless I'm in a specific environment, which is when it really escalates for me. Your condition sounds terrible.

 

[Wraith]

I do! My anxiety is so bad that I've been housebound for years. I'm not even living at this point, just merely existing.

 

[Miss_Takes]

I do feel for all of you suffering so horrifically with this.
My anxiety is a constant tension with episodes of overwhelm and panic but I am grateful not to have to endure as you all do.
I am going to assume you have tried behavioural interventions as well as medications. Although I fully understand that any behavioural intervention requires the things that panic doesnt allow ... its a truly awful circle.
Some things that have helped me at different times ... these are basic but were effective for me (im also aware that time, money and access may be prohibitive along with the anxiety itself)
Buteyko Breathing
Bikram (hot) Yoga
Intensive examination and alteration of diet
Vitamin supplementation incl B vitamins GABA and Inisitol (inisitol is contraindicated with BiPolar so please do your research)
Amino acid
CBD oil
Ketamine therapy
Functional medicine (genetic profiling)
Animals including therapy animals (I will force through some of my issues when I have something other than myself to care for and focus on)
While I am not against the use of cannabis or other substances to manage symptoms I think its really important to act with level of caution as it is with any of the above.

OP, I am happy to edit this out if you would prefer this thread to remain just as a venting and acknowledgement of the intensity and impact of anxiety.

 

[issyishere]

I've heard people say before "anxiety attacks can't last forever. They will eventually calm down." But my anxiety is literally constant and unbearable. I wake up in the morning, and I instantly have a panic attack. The physical symptoms are so strong. TMI warning. Heart pounding, intense nausea, diarrhea (I have to literally run to the bathroom the moment I wake up) vomiting, dry heaving, shaking.

It goes on like that all day, with waves of overwhelming anxiety. I've existed like this for years. It's so horrible. I just want it to stop. Medication doesn't help. It's like I'm trapped. It feels like I'm hell.

It's another reason I get so angry when people say "suicide isn't the answer!" When I have an incurable illness (tinnitus) and when I have anxiety so bad that I vomit and have other physical symptoms from the moment I wake up to the moment I take enough sleeping aids to sleep and no medication has help, and I've suffered like this for 5 years with things only getting worse, how dare they? There is no other way. Everything they suggest is for mild anxiety or depression. My depression doesn't make me literally vomit the second I wake up. The overwhelming waves of anxiety do. I don't have access to my method right now. If I wasn't so traumatized by the psych ward, I'd try another method, but I can't risk surviving so I need to wait. I'm in so much anguish daily. I want it to end so badly. Does anyone have this level of daily severe nonstop anxiety?

Hey I have severe anxiety too with tinnitus. Sometimes the tinnitus becomes unbearable but when I have a fan on at night it becomes a bit easier. I can relate to the digestive distress that it causes I'm pretty sure it exacerbates my ibs. :( I've set an appointment so I can get some medication to see if it helps, its my last shot at getting better. I've had panic attacks daily now and I don't feel like myself anymore. Do you also feel like you've changed drastically from before your anxiety ramped up?

On a side note I also take sleeping meds to sleep but recently they barely help :/ I'm trying melatonin but it also didn't do anything. My next move is to try magnesium and I'll see if it can help. I miss enjoying sleeping so much.

 

[rabbithole]

I had that level of anxiety for a year straight. Felt like being stalked by a bear...it's was a very primal fear I'd wake up with. Was on Xanax, klonopin, Valium (at different times) with no help. I'm on Effexor and zyprexa now and don't have panic attacks anymore, just anxiety and I am intensely suicidal.

 

[tryingtoescape]

I had that level of anxiety for a year straight. Felt like being stalked by a bear...it's was a very primal fear I'd wake up with. Was on Xanax, klonopin, Valium (at different times) with no help. I'm on Effexor and zyprexa now and don't have panic attacks anymore, just anxiety and I am intensely suicidal.

It's a constant fight or flight. Klonopin helps but barely. I was on Effexor but had to stop. What does the zyprexa make you feel like? Most antipsychotics make me feel strange.

 

[Lotus]

I had constant panic attacks for several weeks until it finally slowed down. Extreme nausea with vomiting, cold sweating, could barely eat and I lost so much weight I could barely stand on my feet. It must be awful to be stuck in this nightmare for years. I'm so sorry. I really feel for you, and I wish I had some advice of value. I told my psychiatrist about my problems, but he didn't really give it much attention and just suggested to take antidepressants. My mom suggested diazepam for a short time, but it didn't to much when I was at my worst. Sending you lots of love. I hope you will find a way out of it.

 

[Kramer]

Me. Ptsd is Hell

 

[IWantToSleep]

I've only had a couple panic attacks in my life but have daily anxiety, I can relate, hopefully things work out in your favour.

 

[IAmExhausted]

I have anxiety during the day in form of a constant strong internal tension. I can hardly relax. It's so exhausting. Physical symptoms are horrible stomach pain and disturbed digestion. It's so not funny. And if this isn't enough I have this strong depression. It's plain and simple horror. These feelings and all that. I sometimes believe the antidepressant I take push these feelings in a certain way. But when I decided and tried not to take them for a couple of weeks it wasn't good either. In a sense it was worse.

The only thing that helps but isn't really lifeworthy in a long run is when I take benzodiazepines. It's actually like sedate myself. It maybe good for a relaxing effect but in long term it's not worthwhile because you're not really there. Beside you have to take more and more to have any effect at all.

Does anyone here take benzodiazepines over a long time?

 

[Weary Soul]

Yep, constant unrelenting terror and PTSD; no treatment or supplement has worked except one, and my doctor pulled me off it arbitrarily. He ruined my life among others.

I am so sorry y'all know what this feels like. It is hell.

 

[Deleted member 23885]

The idea of keeping going for as long my body can fills me with fear. I am genuinely afraid of life :(

 

[Antigonish]

I'm actually proud about how good I'm able to function. Even though I'm spiraling downward
I'm definitely drinking loads more. And my depression is still knocking on my door. I keep telling everyone I'll quit my job this year. But I think I'll quit life, instead.

 

[IAmExhausted]

I'm so sorry you all have to suffer from this.

You know there were times - in my younger years - I felt depressed but sort of had the power to recover somehow. I feel now I had lost the power. There were times I could distract me from my thoughts with watching movies, listening to music. I don't see a sense in it anymore. I feel no interest. Knowing that makes it even worse. Do you know what I mean?

 

[Bauhaus]

I dunno what meds you already took but have you tried Lyrica (pregabaline) yet ?
300mg is quite effective, though you also get tolerance but not as bad as with benzos & opioids.
You could also try kratom, it's a mild opioid (partial agonist of the mu receptor so less tolerance problem).
Try a small dose (4-5g) the first time you use it ! Cos it can make you nauseous if you take too much.
Take it a couple of days to see If it works and you might also slowly increase the dose (0.5g per day, no more and also take kratom only once a day) until you have find your "sweet spot", then use it with a high fat source like pure coconut milk, fat is the biggest potentiator for kratom.
Here's a good recipy:
- put kratom in a cup
- add lemonjuice until the powder is just covered
- stir well and wait like 20 m. until the juice is absorbed and you have a paste
- add hot (not boiling) water and sweetener until cup is almost full and stir
- add 1-2 coffeespoons of solid coconut milk (the milk gets solid if you put it in the fridge for a while)
To give you the idea:
Few days ago I took my kratom like in the recipy.
I used 2 big (heaped) coffeespoons of coconut milk, more than I usually take.
I laid down on my couch, slowly my body got warmer and more relaxed, I think it took a full hour to reach it's peak.
Then I had a strong "warm body high"and I felt really sedated, I even felt sleepy !
The effect lasts a few hours in total.
To me kratom feels more like a medium strong benzo, rather than an opioid.
Be carefull to use kratom when you have strong apathy though, best start with 1 flat spoon of cocos milk cos more milk gives a stronger sedation but I feel it also worsens apathy.
For anxiety it works great though.
On a sidenote, kratom tastes very bitter, and adding lemon juice, sweetener and a fat source makes it more palatable.
A reddit user said adding a pinch of baking soda also helps with the bitterness but I haven't tried this yet.
Check out the subreddit 'kratom' if you need more info.
Hope this helps.

 

[death137]

I've a daily social anxiety. I get panic attack when I speak among ppl or ppl look at me. Also sometimes in dreams when things get crowded or I experience sleep paralysis I get panic attack. When things get crowded I wake up and run in fear.

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Me, i start shaking at tge momment i wake up it makes me very tired

 

[WornOutLife]

Oh man, that sounds awful! Sorry you're feeling like this.

In my case, I've started to feel more and more anxiety these days. I can't even sleep properly because my brain can't stop thinking. I wish I couldn turn it off with a button.

 

[suicidaltoad]

Oh man, that sounds awful! Sorry you're feeling like this.

In my case, I'm started to feel more and more anxiety these days. I can't even sleep properly because my brain can't stop thinking. I wish I couldn turn it off with a button.

I'm afraid to go to sleep, because my anxiety is a lot better at night and then I wake up in the morning, and for a second there's no anxiety but then I realize I'm awake and life is still going and the anxiety hits me like a train and I can't go back to sleep...

 

[ghost-key]

Well hey, a thread I can definitely relate to.

Let me start off by saying that I suffer from a GAD (General Anxiety Disorder) on the daily. When I wake up in the morning for work, I usually feel pretty okay. No shakes, trembles, nausea, or anything like that. The worry & fear is still there in the back of my head but it doesn't usually show itself first thing in the morning.

A typical day though is filled with that worry, fear, shakes, nausea, constant thoughts of "What if I get sick right now?" and "What is wrong with me? Why am I so depressed? Why can't I just calm the fuck down?!" rinse & repeat. I also have emetophobia which is the phobia of vomiting. Mix that in with my depression and anxiety and you have one big mess on your hands. It's a struggle, not going to lie. There's days where I just can't cope and I'm doing everything I can to not have a panic attack and that's when the darting decisions come out; what I mean by that is I'm just quickly darting and sprinting through my phone looking for a distraction, playing a game, reading something, anything to just calm down.

What I've learned though is that there's things you can do to reduce your anxiety. I've made the decision this year to cut soda out of my diet 100%. Only drinking water, tea and juices. I'm going to exercise more than I did last year, practice yoga & meditation and this last one seems silly but force myself to cry when I'm feeling overwhelmed. Crying is good for the soul. I've also found that apps on the iPhone/Android can help. I use two at the moment that I really enjoy. One is called "Breathwork" and is a tool to help you learn how to slow your breathing and heartrate down. The second is called "Replika" and is a chatbot. Think of it as a therapist you don't have to pay for. Just a text based bot that shows emotions that you can talk to at anytime.

Anxiety sucks, that's all I can say.

 

[NeverSatisfied]

I'm actually proud about how good I'm able to function. Even though I'm spiraling downward
I'm definitely drinking loads more. And my depression is still knocking on my door. I keep telling everyone I'll quit my job this year. But I think I'll quit life, instead.

Well if this ain't the most relatable thing I've read all day. The last year and a half of college I abandoned all my friends and would HIDE from my roommates I was so anxious. I feel like I'm pretty functional too but damn...this shit has gotten worse and worse and therapy and medicine are not helping at all.

What I've learned though is that there's things you can do to reduce your anxiety. I've made the decision this year to cut soda out of my diet 100%. Only drinking water, tea and juices. I'm going to exercise more than I did last year, practice yoga & meditation and this last one seems silly but force myself to cry when I'm feeling overwhelmed. Crying is good for the soul. I've also found that apps on the iPhone/Android can help. I use two at the moment that I really enjoy. One is called "Breathwork" and is a tool to help you learn how to slow your breathing and heartrate down. The second is called "Replika" and is a chatbot. Think of it as a therapist you don't have to pay for. Just a text based bot that shows emotions that you can talk to at anytime.

Anxiety sucks, that's all I can say.

I'm glad you've found some things that'll hopefully help. I think we should all allow ourselves to cry more and wish emotions other than fake smiles were acceptable on this planet. Ooop, looks like we all forgot "to take our Joy" *clown emoji*