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CGN83

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Out of curiosity I'm wondering who else has a list of "Reasons why" similar to what the main character in 13 reasons why had?

I intend on sending my list of Reasons why by post to each person who has hurt me and driven my suicidal thoughts.

It cruel, but I want them to live knowing they contributed towards my death.
 
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lpdsvm

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Jan 11, 2026
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I think if those people do not know you well anymore, they won't care. They might get surprised and forget in a day or two since they have their own issues and get stressed too.
If I send a list, some people will celebrate. My boss will only care about the replacement. Maybe get sad for a fraction of a second or celebrate laughing with their colleagues. Haha
My mom will be sad so here I might have to say (lie) that I would never CTB or give a perfect explanation it is not her fault. She didn't terrorize me. She wasn't a typical abuser. Nothing bad from those memories. A mistake is different from an active act of violence and toxic behavior.
I just have 3-4 main points and if they (one or a all of them depending on the circumstances) come true I will CTB.
 
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Forever Sleep

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It's maybe more of a sequence of problems, possible solutions and why I believe those solutions won't be adequate.

I suppose it matters to me that my potential suicide is well reasoned out inside my head. Although, I doubt others would accept that reasoning so- I wonder if formating it into a list or sequence would be that beneficial. I'll probably still try though.

My initial ideation was because of an individual and, had I died at that time- I did want to name/ blame them. Now though- it's more just the unavoidable grind of life that doesn't bear enough reward. I'll probably still express that in a note in some way if I have the guts to end it.
 
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Jan 19, 2026
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No I don't, yes there's cruel people in the world but can I really blame them when this is the world we live in… I don't feel any resentment towards anyone. I just hate myself more than anything XD
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I'm sorry but I don't think they will care, especially if you're not close any more. The thing about suicide for revenge is those people may be sad or shocked or whatever at first, but they'll just go on with their lives and they'll forget it with time. If you want to CTB fine but I'm just not sure sending people a letter telling them they contributed to their suicide will do anything and they might just write you off as being a bit "mental" and disregard it entirely. I don't mean to be mean I just think it'll be a waste of time tbh.
 

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