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noname223
Angelic
- Aug 18, 2020
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Maybe this is not a good topic if one wants to avoid getting doxxed. This is why I stay vague.
I think I am paranoid about them. That they would watch me, but not exactly spying.
I think this is my special paranoia because I was exactly raised in this way. Especially my mom told me how much the neighbors would hate us. Despite the fact we did not know them. I cannot remember any situation when I said more than Hi to them. I think this contributed to the fact me and my sister developed psychosis. We were told as young children our environment is not secure. there are enemies everywhere and they all hate us. Moreover she always emphasized how important it is what they think about us. And that they would gossip about us. Despite the fact my mom is a person who just cannot stop to gossip about other people herself.
I think this really destroyed our trust in strangers. It was so unnessecary to fear monger about our neighbors. Who gives a shit what they think.
Though I am sometimes kind of shocked when I read in the newspaper that some neighbors control the garbage of their neighbors. Maybe that is an idiosyncrasy in my country but there is a saying. Germans love to denunciate their neighbors when they don't seperate their garbage properly. Yeah I love my fellow German citizens. Not because of the garbage thing. But because the vast majority is in favor of assisted suicide and rich people are unpopular. Yeah my German fellows are just as envious as me. Lol.
I think I am paranoid about them. That they would watch me, but not exactly spying.
I think this is my special paranoia because I was exactly raised in this way. Especially my mom told me how much the neighbors would hate us. Despite the fact we did not know them. I cannot remember any situation when I said more than Hi to them. I think this contributed to the fact me and my sister developed psychosis. We were told as young children our environment is not secure. there are enemies everywhere and they all hate us. Moreover she always emphasized how important it is what they think about us. And that they would gossip about us. Despite the fact my mom is a person who just cannot stop to gossip about other people herself.
I think this really destroyed our trust in strangers. It was so unnessecary to fear monger about our neighbors. Who gives a shit what they think.
Though I am sometimes kind of shocked when I read in the newspaper that some neighbors control the garbage of their neighbors. Maybe that is an idiosyncrasy in my country but there is a saying. Germans love to denunciate their neighbors when they don't seperate their garbage properly. Yeah I love my fellow German citizens. Not because of the garbage thing. But because the vast majority is in favor of assisted suicide and rich people are unpopular. Yeah my German fellows are just as envious as me. Lol.
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