Difficult question. I quit most of them. When I was a child I watched a lot of animes. Some series are still on going and I still follow them. Like One Piece.
Yeah I am not into most fictional series anymore. And I don't watch many movies. As a teen I had a period when I made offending jokes to provoke people. I feel very bad about it now. I was bullied in school and abused at home. I had to vent/cope at this age. And I turned my hate to people who did not deserve it. There was a time I made some edgy jokes when I met friends.
The movie American History X has convinced me that racist jokes are awful. Yeah I am not proud of this time period in my life. My best friends experienced this time period. It caused some tensions. But I have apologized for being a dick at this time. I only made these jokes when I was around them. Not in public.
The TV series House of Cards has shaped me. It fueled my interest in having a career, getting a good education and a lot of power. Yeah everything bakcfired. And in the Tv series they depict suicide as the easy way out. I can remember it I think one character commits suicide by mixing wine with sleeping pills. Yeah I had to learn this is only a myth.
The TV series Ray Donovan gave me a really toxic notion how men shall be. The main character has some demons and has a very destructive behavior. I think he was abused as a child too. He coped by being a bad-ass. Sleeping with a lot of women, earning money by doing crimes. The latter one was never my intention. But I think this notion to never show weakness and always being seen as a strong person had a destructive impact on me. When I had my first psychosis my whole world view collapsed. I was taught by parents to never show vulnerability. I think these TV series never explained how life really workks. At least I had no idea how to cope with vulnerabilities in an healthy way.
And yeah look at me now. I am doing way better. I am whining every single day in an online suicide forum how much I hate my life. Okay I am only joking. I think I have developed more healthy ways to deal with my suffering. But this does not change the fact that am total mental wreck who probably cannot be saved.
Moreover I watched some violent series which were pretty bloody. I think this led to watching gore later. I regret both. I have quitted watching violent content. It affects my mental health badly. But at least I am not traumatized by what I have seen Some The Walking Dead episodes are this violent that they only allowed in a censored version in my country. Honeslty I think this is quite stupid. Adutls should have the opportunity to watch brutal fictional stuff. It is kind of paternalistic.
I liked the movie Joker. It could comfort me a little bit. But the ironic thing was I only watched it when the movie was released as a DVD. I watched clips on youtube and liked them a lot. I dislike cinemas, Probaby one reason why I did not watched it there.
Which fictional movies or series have shaped you?
Yeah I am not into most fictional series anymore. And I don't watch many movies. As a teen I had a period when I made offending jokes to provoke people. I feel very bad about it now. I was bullied in school and abused at home. I had to vent/cope at this age. And I turned my hate to people who did not deserve it. There was a time I made some edgy jokes when I met friends.
The movie American History X has convinced me that racist jokes are awful. Yeah I am not proud of this time period in my life. My best friends experienced this time period. It caused some tensions. But I have apologized for being a dick at this time. I only made these jokes when I was around them. Not in public.
The TV series House of Cards has shaped me. It fueled my interest in having a career, getting a good education and a lot of power. Yeah everything bakcfired. And in the Tv series they depict suicide as the easy way out. I can remember it I think one character commits suicide by mixing wine with sleeping pills. Yeah I had to learn this is only a myth.
The TV series Ray Donovan gave me a really toxic notion how men shall be. The main character has some demons and has a very destructive behavior. I think he was abused as a child too. He coped by being a bad-ass. Sleeping with a lot of women, earning money by doing crimes. The latter one was never my intention. But I think this notion to never show weakness and always being seen as a strong person had a destructive impact on me. When I had my first psychosis my whole world view collapsed. I was taught by parents to never show vulnerability. I think these TV series never explained how life really workks. At least I had no idea how to cope with vulnerabilities in an healthy way.
And yeah look at me now. I am doing way better. I am whining every single day in an online suicide forum how much I hate my life. Okay I am only joking. I think I have developed more healthy ways to deal with my suffering. But this does not change the fact that am total mental wreck who probably cannot be saved.
Moreover I watched some violent series which were pretty bloody. I think this led to watching gore later. I regret both. I have quitted watching violent content. It affects my mental health badly. But at least I am not traumatized by what I have seen Some The Walking Dead episodes are this violent that they only allowed in a censored version in my country. Honeslty I think this is quite stupid. Adutls should have the opportunity to watch brutal fictional stuff. It is kind of paternalistic.
I liked the movie Joker. It could comfort me a little bit. But the ironic thing was I only watched it when the movie was released as a DVD. I watched clips on youtube and liked them a lot. I dislike cinemas, Probaby one reason why I did not watched it there.
Which fictional movies or series have shaped you?
