Discussion Where would you see yourself rn without SaSu?

[Aloneisbestforme]

like the title says.

I thought about this last night right and I can't say to much since i've been using this forum for around 2 days and a lurker for like a month or 2.

But for myself I think would be crying in my bed more often and taking alot more baths to cope with the pain I have to deal with and I would be thinking about ctb more and overall I think I would be a little broken.

This forum has helped ease that pain by alot. it's still very strong but it's tamer now.

What about you guys. where would you see yourself right now without this place?

 

[No_Lxve]

I would probably feel less comfortable with myself knowing I was the only one going through this alone

this website made me realized how selfish I was before.

I used to think that no one else goes through the things that I go through now.

but in reality, some people go through so much worse and have similar problems like I do.

so, I would probably be a bitchy person, but this website changed that.

respect to all of you, btw

 

[Lulzacruel]

I'd be bored and probably dead or in the ward.

 

[OpalCheesecake]

Very, very bottled up. I've tried casually talking about this stuff to my friends and they get extremely worried. Hit me with the "I'm here if you need to talk." That's not a bad thing, but I'm aware I'm making them feel bad, therefore I don't want to talk to them about it. Everyone here is pretty casual about it. So, otherwise, I'd still be googling "how to painlessly ctb" in ten different variations by myself in a dark room in bed.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

If I didn't find SaSu back in May, when I registered I'd be probably dead already because I was so close to CTB at that time. Somehow I regret it that I didn't CTB but yeah currently SaSu keeps me alive and I feel a kind of natural recovery from that last depressive episode.

 

[SexyIncél]

Dead by shotgun. I met certain people here, who solved my problem. They're sufficiently different from me; this is the only likely place I'd meet them

 

[Huggs]

Certainly worse off. The community is a small reprieve in that I don't feel completely unique in my suffering and need to find peace.

 

[アホペンギン]

With SaSu, I have some hope (the hope that i'll soon be dead.) If I didn't know about this place then I'd probably be absolutely hopeless and believe that I have no way out and never will have any way out of this dreadful suffering.

 

[jar-baby]

I'd probably be terrified of my own mind and as a result my psychological state would be a lot worse. This forum has let me know that I'm not alone in my beliefs or emotions.

 

[Takamagahara]

I've delayed a few times because I keep seeing relatable takes here and it makes me want to talk to the people here.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just be the same, still wanting to die, this site doesn't change everything, I wished to cease existing long before I found this site and always will do as long as I exist.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

I'd just be the same, still wanting to die, this site doesn't change everything, I wished to cease existing long before I found this site and always will do as long as I exist.

Do you think this site will help you find a way out eventually?

I think it is helping me to come to terms with leaving. Seeing others suffering and taking charge of their destiny is both sad and liberating at the same time. It's a powerful thing to take back control, when you've been beaten down by a cruel unforgiving life.

 

[FuneralCry]

Do you think this site will help you find a way out eventually?

I think it is helping me to come to terms with leaving. Seeing others suffering and taking charge of their destiny is both sad and liberating at the same time. It's a powerful thing to take back control, when you've been beaten down by a cruel unforgiving life.

I don't know honestly, for me all the methods are either risky or inaccessible, it's not exactly helpful at the current moment.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

Definitely worse off. Without the necessary information and stability this site gives me I might of given myself permanent damage from a hasty and impulsive attempt. Knowing how to exit peacefully is comforting and having constant reassurance I'm not alone helps me keep a stable mental state even in bad cirumstances.