bear_trapped
taking it one day at a time
- Feb 13, 2020
- 72
i lost my brother in may this year. i was still holding on to life and trying to be strong for my mom, because i know she wouldn't be able to handle losing both of her kids. i went to wake her up for work last friday because she wasn't in the shower yet like she normally was, and i had found that she had passed the night before. i am extremely fucked up and traumatized, and my ONLY reason for being alive is gone now. in the past five months alone i have lost my brother and mother, and i'm on the path of losing our house which means my stepdad will have to move away and he'll be gone too. i also quit my job and couldn't care less about anything anymore. i've been staying at my aunts house and noticed she keeps her gun just out and i assumed loaded. i plan on shooting myself on my 21st birthday next week. i'm too much of a pussy to shoot my head or stomach, so where else would be fatal and less scary? i've been researching and thinking about an artery in my shoulder