Help Where should I go?

[Blurry_Buildings]

Hey,
I am sorry if this question comes off as weird. I am really bad at making decisions for myself sometimes. I am committed to killing myself in the future, but haven't done anything while I have been living with my parents.

Soon I will probably (hopefully) finally be moving out, and can live anywhere I can get a job. The job I am able to do is widespread and usually in (or in the suburbs of) most medium-large cities and sometimes in small towns as well. In other words, I can live in almost any semi large city in the US. I'd prefer to live in a state without restrictive gun laws, although if I end up in one of the 5 restrictive ones I am willing to fill out the paperwork (I was put in a psychward as a child).

I just really need advice on where to go. I feel really isolated and alone. I used to have so many friends but they've all moved on, and I'm really socially awkward. I don't think I can take the isolation much longer.

 

[whywere]

Hi!

I live in the Midwest of the U.S. and I was raised on a working dairy farm and have lived in every type of town from around 3k in people to over 4 million.

Like with anything in life there are tradeoffs on EVERYTHING.

I have always had the thoughts and feeling of this, and so many have told me that it is SO negative, BUT for me it is VERY practical and FORWARD thinking.

Sit down, relax and take a piece of paper and pen or electronic device and write down 2 columns, 1 of the things that you would like in a place to live AND, more importantly, things in that place(s) that you HATE. That is the KEY, as everyone loves things, BUT what is the negative that one can stomach in the short and LONG term.

I have always scratched my head when I hear of someone moving somewhere and THEN complaining about it, REALLY? Like did something overnight change in the place where they moved? No, they did NOT take the time and fortitude to think of WHAT they did NOT like, YIKES!

If I was you, I would:

1) take time and think
2) write down what you like and what you might have planned in the near future.
3) if one has time and money, take a short visit there and keep one's eyes WIDE open, no wow or anything, take a step back while there and REALLY look and think, "can I live here?"
4) at my age, I can look back and say with certainty that I have made mistakes where I have lived, like one time moving to a small-town of 2500 folks with NO social life for a young person, BIG mistake, I was gone from that town in about 3 months.

I wish you all the happiness, love, understanding in I hope that you find your perfect place and always around if you want to chat.

Have a great rest of this week.

Walter

 

[Blurry_Buildings]

Thank you so much! I will try that