Where I might do it

[Xila]

It's gonna sound kind of weird but it just sounds more peaceful to me.

Ironically, I'm Catholic and I'm still practicing. I'm looking more into methods that knock you out before you check out.

The Church is empty at certain times of the day, and people don't typically go in past that point unless it's individual prayer. I could easily just go to an area where almost nobody would be to pray. Put my head down over the bench like I'm praying.

By the time anyone would notice, it would just be over. It would take ages.


Idk yet. I kinda just wanna die in a Church. It's weird I know.

 

[aushunaph]

i absolutely understand, and honestly this sounds really peaceful as long as it isn't a violent way out

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

It's gonna sound kind of weird but it just sounds more peaceful to me.

Ironically, I'm Catholic and I'm still practicing. I'm looking more into methods that knock you out before you check out.

The Church is empty at certain times of the day, and people don't typically go in past that point unless it's individual prayer. I could easily just go to an area where almost nobody would be to pray. Put my head down over the bench like I'm praying.

By the time anyone would notice, it would just be over. It would take ages.


Idk yet. I kinda just wanna die in a Church. It's weird I know.

Gun?

 

[behindtheveil]

The peace and pure vibes of the place sure seem enough to grant peace at the time of ctb. But may I ask what method are you thinking?

 

[fallenbutterfly]

If that's your wishes, then there is nothing wrong with that. You're not hurting anyone and it sounds like a peaceful way to go.

 

[BradGuy123]

You risk being discovered. My church is really big, so there's a lot of stuff going on there. You might end up choosing a room where some kind of activity happens right after you start the process and you didn't know the event was going to happen. You might be discovered by a custodian cleaning or a security guard making his rounds.

 

[kitkatt]

It's gonna sound kind of weird but it just sounds more peaceful to me.

Ironically, I'm Catholic and I'm still practicing. I'm looking more into methods that knock you out before you check out.

The Church is empty at certain times of the day, and people don't typically go in past that point unless it's individual prayer. I could easily just go to an area where almost nobody would be to pray. Put my head down over the bench like I'm praying.

By the time anyone would notice, it would just be over. It would take ages.


Idk yet. I kinda just wanna die in a Church. It's weird I know.

That sounds like a beautiful place to go in but I agree with others that there's a lot of uncertainty's that could lead to you being found before completion. Abandoned church possibly? I want to go in the woods I want the earth to reclaim me. Born a critter die like one you know. So it's not weird choosing these last moments to lead to hopefully peace are deeply personal and there's nothing weird about it

 

[Xila]

Gun?

No gun

The peace and pure vibes of the place sure seem enough to grant peace at the time of ctb. But may I ask what method are you thinking?

I'm still looking into it. I'm looking for something quick that also hopefully knocks me out

You risk being discovered. My church is really big, so there's a lot of stuff going on there. You might end up choosing a room where some kind of activity happens right after you start the process and you didn't know the event was going to happen. You might be discovered by a custodian cleaning or a security guard making his rounds.

I visit a lot, I know how the schedule is and if I was really that concerned about anything sudden, they list everything on the bulletin board. I can just sit in the back and fold my arms over my face.

 

[lonergirl_26]

That sounds so peaceful

 

[Xila]

That sounds like a beautiful place to go in but I agree with others that there's a lot of uncertainty's that could lead to you being found before completion. Abandoned church possibly? I want to go in the woods I want the earth to reclaim me. Born a critter die like one you know. So it's not weird choosing these last moments to lead to hopefully peace are deeply personal and there's nothing weird about it

As far as I'm aware I don't think there's anything as you would describe. There's a chapel that almost nobody but the clergy visits unless there's something planned, but idk how that's scheduled so that's just more risky.
It's not just about being a church, it has to be Catholic too.

 

[kitkatt]

As far as I'm aware I don't think there's anything as you would describe. There's a chapel that almost nobody but the clergy visits unless there's something planned, but idk how that's scheduled so that's just more risky.
It's not just about being a church, it has to be Catholic too.

I understand. Just make sure you heavily weigh your pros and cons none of us know whether or not it may be worth it. I definitely get specifics though I'm only still here because I'm specific

 

[SASU-KE]

Idk yet. I kinda just wanna die in a Church. It's weird I know.

I get it.I've always found churches beautiful. The stained glass windows. The architecture. I also do have good memories of going to church as a child. I used to be forced to tag along with my parents when they went but it was a good place to socialize and meet people.

 

[kitkatt]

I get it.I've always found churches beautiful. The stained glass windows. The architecture. I also do have good memories of going to church as a child. I used to be forced to tag along with my parents when they went but it was a good place to socialize and meet people.

I understand. While I'm no longer religious I was raised religiously and I find using its symbolism impossible. It's incredibly powerful in what I stand for. Ideally I'd find an old forgotten temple to die in because I know my spirt is pure and loving and I feel like if heaven were real nature would be the places i could touch it.
I unfortunately just got bullied at church I was too weird. But I feel gods love I feel as if I am him my self and have been tasked with carrying all the sins of humanity. Which is also why I'll end it in hopes my sacrifice unknowingly undos all the hurt in the world

 

[Oreki]

But I feel gods love I feel as if I am him my self and have been tasked with carrying all the sins of humanity. Which is also why I'll end it in hopes my sacrifice unknowingly undos all the hurt in the world

That's a very absolute, world encompassing idea. People don't magically change because someone dies.
No human carries the sins of humanity

 

[kitkatt]

That's a very absolute, world encompassing idea. People don't magically change because someone dies.
No human carries the sins of humanity

I know it is, I know nothing will change once I pass. I just wish I meant something more I wish all my suffering could be at the cos of no one else having to suffer again. It's absolute because this is my last year and well the magic comes from make believe because this is bull shit and the whole world deserves better. And well I'll high with oxygen from brain depriving drugs and as well as it slows me down so I can have one string of thoughts instead of 10 billion well I'm still high lol

 

[Oreki]

I just wish I meant something more I wish all my suffering could be at the cos of no one else having to suffer again.

I've actually read similar thoughts here a few times, and sometimes I catch myself thinking like that too. I don't know your exact circumstances, but I understand the part of you that wishes your suffering could somehow mean that no one else would ever have to suffer again. I genuinely respect you for thinking that way, it says a lot about the kind of person you are.

 

[kitkatt]

I've actually read similar thoughts here a few times, and sometimes I catch myself thinking like that too. I don't know your exact circumstances, but I understand the part of you that wishes your suffering could somehow mean that no one else would ever have to suffer again. I genuinely respect you for thinking that way, it says a lot about the kind of person you are.

I appreciate that I do my best to be what I deem a good person even if everything feels sucky for me lol