Venting When will you ctb?

[_Minsk]

I think I've never been closer, got most of my items for ctb. I think i might go in 1-3 months or this year. Maybe things will get better but tbh I've been tired of this life for so long now.

What are your plans and have you set a vague date?
Many hugs

 

[Death is beautiful]

This fall, most likely in September

 

[Axll12345]

Soon. How old are you guys?

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not have any plans at the moment. I never want to be alive but I am still here because suicide is very difficult. There is the lack of peaceful and reliable way to exit and the fear of failure. I deserve a peaceful exit and I am envious of those who can get euthanasia. I think I have suffered enough and I see no point in continuing this existence. I am also tired of living. I believe that eventually I will get desperate enough and then I will finally leave this world.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Plan is to get it done within three years. Basically waiting for something to push me over the edge (whether it be something external or internal), would also like to wait so that one of my siblings could be in a more stable position in life when it happens. Like with everything else, I tend to sit around and be inactive. We do have some economy and geopolitical stuff going on, maybe it'll get to me somehow. More likely might be something like an illness or traumatic event happening. Will probably end up getting another internal ctb-rush at some point and getting it done then, ("iMpuLSivEly").

I'm definitely biased toward waiting, as long as I don't have to deal with physical pain. Wouldn't be surprised if I ended up dying of a stroke in my mother's basement at age 50, either. With me nothing is ever set in stone (at least nowadays, used to be the complete opposite).

 

[Circles]

At this rate probably never I'm such a fucking coward. I've been planning for years, I've had my supplies now for almost 2 years now and quite frankly it feels like I never will. I feel like I'm waiting for something extremely bad to happen to finally push me over the edge, but I've had that happen a few times already and I haven't done anything yet besides just staring at the measuring cups.

 

[Death is beautiful]

At this rate probably never I'm such a fucking coward. I've been planning for years, I've had my supplies now for almost 2 years now and quite frankly it feels like I never will. I feel like I'm waiting for something extremely bad to happen to finally push me over the edge, but I've had that happen a few times already and I haven't done anything yet besides just staring at the measuring cups.

For a long time I was in the same state, it can be painful mentally

 

[lex]

Probably in the summer sometime so I can do it outside. I don't want my corpse to rot in my apartment

 

[Maaizr]

no time soon actually, ive got scores to settle here first ☠☠ (and i still have hope in some areas if you can believe that shit lmaoo)

 

[Crazy4u]

Soon. How old are you guys?

hello new member. everyone is over 18 years old. Why does it matter? are you doing a survey for journalists?

 

[gottago222]

when the time is right

 

[Axll12345]

Lol no not doing any survey for any journalists I was just curious.

hello new member. everyone is over 18 years old. Why does it matter? are you doing a survey for journalists?

 

[Crazy4u]

I think I've never been closer, got most of my items for ctb. I think i might go in 1-3 months or this year. Maybe things will get better but tbh I've been tired of this life for so long now.

What are your plans and have you set a vague date?
Many hugs

most likely within 1-2 months. Hopefully before May

 

[Arot]

July or maybe early august. My end is near

 

[EraseRewind]

My window is from the end of April through to September, but I'm struggling with courage, I may have the push I need in a week or two. Recently rejected again so the impetus is starting to build.

 

[lastlife_]

Before this week is over.. I hope. I'm going to try my best.

 

[MeltedJello]

Hopefully this summer. It's really the best time for me, as I rarely get any chances to ctb.

 

[dreadpirateroberts69]

Possibly sometime in May, July, or September, if I don't have a breakthrough and end up changing my mind

 

[Faraknur]

Soon i think. I cant anymore. To think i need to live life for another 50 years to the average life expectancy feels like torture. I am waiting for my mothers death. I feel i am ungrateful because she raised me and put so much effort in and i am throwing it away. But i feel no joy anymore. Gonna make a few dry runs. to check everything

 

[allesistgut]

while i feel like i'd be at peace leaving now, i don't think i will until the end of this year or early next year. i feel it'd be unfair of me to make my friends have to deal with another death so soon after we just lost someone. but i'm not sure.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

It's almost impossible to guess.

I'm pretty stable and okay right now, but my suicidality tends to bring a focus with it that cancels everything else out, almost like a long-term trance. It can't be predicted, so it's all a crap shoot. I'm really hoping that my current meds cocktail will keep it at bay for a nice, long while.

It would devastate my husband and I'm sure he would blame himself.

 

[myopybyproxy]

next may at the latest, but perhaps as soon as next month, who knows - doing a test run first and figuring out a few more things about my method, plus sort out details of my holographic will and actually write it on paper

 

[lobster salad]

4 months, 2 weeks. I'm excited but very worried, I'm not sure if i will be ready and go through with it. I definitely am trouble and not welcome to stay, despite what people tell me I see through it

 

[Treeline589]

Hopefully within the next month

 

[height jumper 69]

I'll do it anytime

 

[Onthe29th]

I always say soon but if you asked me how soon, I wouldn't be able to answer you

 

[yive]

2022

 

[YMN]

I'm still waiting on my SN to arrive. But it's looking to be mid-late February this year. If my SN doesn't come by that time, then I'll likely turn towards other methods.

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

I was never supposed to even see this year and my birthday yesterday as I had decided to ctb atmost my December. But it didn't happen and just like everything in my life, I was a failure/procrastinator in this as well. But now that I have my method with me along with all the necessary items, I will do it by next month. There is absolutely nothing left for me in this world but I guess I still have to push myself to do it. Otherwise I don't want to see what happens if I don't.

 

[Cheza_mus]

In easter season hopefully