Venting when will enough be enough?

[livingdeaddyke]

when will i finally be happy for what i have. why do i want more happiness?
i already have friends, so why do i need to have more?
i have people i love, so why do i want more lovers?
i have the talent so why do i want to be more talented?

it's all ive been asking myself. it feels selfish to have those thoughts, but i can't help but have them. i just want to be perfect. i want to feel perfect.
i want to finally feel enough for everything. i want people to notice me, people better than me, to notice me, and to love me. i'm tired of being alone. of feeling alone. im tired of seeing people life my life, my dreams, and i get to go through hell for no reason.

everyone except me has their reason to sparkle.

 

[Frxtagooox]

when will i finally be happy for what i have. why do i want more happiness?
i already have friends, so why do i need to have more?
i have people i love, so why do i want more lovers?
i have the talent so why do i want to be more talented?

it's all ive been asking myself. it feels selfish to have those thoughts, but i can't help but have them. i just want to be perfect. i want to feel perfect.
i want to finally feel enough for everything. i want people to notice me, people better than me, to notice me, and to love me. i'm tired of being alone. of feeling alone. im tired of seeing people life my life, my dreams, and i get to go through hell for no reason.

everyone except me has their reason to sparkle.

when you are grateful that you're still here with us, when we have a stable job, when we have a lover i think that is enough as in we didnt want to lost ourselves