When I'm dead

[Warriorsfan]

To the people who caused me so much stress for nothing.
I hope you're happy when I'm dead.
All I tried to do was stay away from you. But you wouldn't leave me alone.
This caused me to do and say things I never would have done. Leading to my manic episode followed by depression that wants me to be only dead nothing more nothing less.

 

[matt.7890]

I feel you... Stay strong and hope you find peace that you deserve

 

[Warriorsfan]

Me also.
I know one person, wasn't on here, that hung himself. It was in his garage that had good anchor points. I don't have good anchor point in my home. I know of other who hung himself also.
I'm willing to go through whatever pain there is. I just am not able to set it up.
Fentanyl is good option but haven't been able to get it.

 

[matt.7890]

I also have those moments when I want to do it here and now but then I try to keep in mind all those people I have seen in psych ward after their failed attempts... It has to be well planned and prepared to the extent possible I think.. take your time

 

[Warriorsfan]

I had same experience in hospital.
Some people are able to just do it.
You see it our read about in the news.
People die by accident on oxy.
And I didn't.
Fucking sucks!
I would like fentanyl to ctb.
Sad but true.