1st off anyone, anywhere who would view child photos of this nature should be arrested.
2) You made a judgement in error, and I can feel your pain, I really can, as being 68, I have made so many errors that I lost count, HOWEVER life not only moves on, but it always evolves, and the past is just that the past. No one can change that aspect BUT moving forward one can gradually make improvements in one's life. Yep, it takes time and sometimes a lot longer, BUT it can lessen the memories and also new experiences help make old ones less important.
3) At the age of 68 and also this is the only net site that I have or will ever be on, I will give a lesson from my past. Back in 1981, this very cute lady wanted to go to a movie with me and I said yes. On the way back to drop her off, she bluntly told me that either she got sex that night or she would never go out with me again. The drive back to her folk's place was a long drive and gave me time to think and I gave into her request, even thou it was 100% against what I felt inside as what is right and wrong.
I went out with her one more time and she demanded the same aspect the second time and I said no.
Now I was haunted by what I gave into for over a decade, as I did not go out with another lady for some time and when I got married, fast forward and got divorced as she had a huge slot machine addiction, I had so many issues get married because of the 1981 issues, and right then and there, and I have seen lived by this, I forgave myself, chalked it up to a learning experience and it lessened a lot in my memory.
I hope and pray, as after reading your thread it is very evident that you are a smart, loving, caring and very thoughtful person, that you deserve lots of vibrant blue skies and always remember that you are family to/for me, as I have no family nor friends.
Take great care my good friend.
Walter