When does starvation become unbearable?

[CoolGuy9]

Lately something happened which triggered my depression and I reacted in a completely new way of starvation. I have went on a couple of days with out eating and honestly it's not as bad as I expected. Still sucks, but keeps my mind distracted from reality. I'm interested in seeing how long I can do this, but I'm afraid that eventually my hunger will become unbearable. I'm interested in hearing the experiences of people who have been starving a lot more than I have.

 

[logan]

I don't think it's good to weaken your body even more if you're not mentally well.

If I were you, I would at least eat fruit and vegetables and drink enough.

 

[CoolGuy9]

I don't think it's good to weaken your body even more if you're not mentally well.

If I were you, I would at least eat fruit and vegetables and drink enough.

My main reason for doing this is to weaken my body. I really want to harm myself somehow and this is the only way I can. I know it's not a good idea, but there is a reason I'm on this website.

 

[logan]

I can understand that.
But it certainly doesn't get any better that way ...

Maybe it will help you to talk about what is bothering you.

 

[CoolGuy9]

I can understand that.
But it certainly doesn't get any better that way ...

Maybe it will help you to talk about what is bothering you.

I know it doesn't and maybe if I was a bit wiser, id stop.

I actually have really wanted to talk about what's going on in here and with a couple of my friends, but I have a lot of conflicting feelings and I don't know what to say. I'll probably talk about it once my mind has cleared up.

 

[logan]

I know it doesn't and maybe if I was a bit wiser, id stop.

I actually have really wanted to talk about what's going on in here and with a couple of my friends, but I have a lot of conflicting feelings and I don't know what to say. I'll probably talk about it once my mind has cleared up.

I believe you...
But to be able to think clearly, you should at least eat and drink a little.
Otherwise you will make your situation even worse.

 

[CoolGuy9]

I believe you...
But to be able to think clearly, you should at least eat and drink a little.
Otherwise you will make your situation even worse.

Something will happen soon which will remove a lot of my uncertainty and anxiety which will probably make me feel better. I also have to go somewhere in 2 weeks and assuming I don't cancel, I need some energy to go. Also starvation is suppose to be really painful and I'm sure that will force me to eat.

 

[Mentalmick]

For me it didn't become unbearable. I went ten days without eating and after the second day it became surprisingly easy. I was very weak and lightheaded but I wasn't hungry or anything.

 

[CoolGuy9]

For me it didn't become unbearable. I went ten days without eating and after the second day it became surprisingly easy. I was very weak and lightheaded but I wasn't hungry or anything.

Interesting and weird. What made you eat again?

 

[Mentalmick]

Interesting and weird. What made you eat again?

I was trying to starve myself to death when I was in hospital but it was taking too long and I was going to be discharged by that point so I just started eating again. Two of these to be exact:

 

[cactus]

I wish I could starve myself. With all the psych drugs and not getting out due to anxiety and depression I am getting extremely obese. Every time I skip eating I binge on comfort food

 

[logan]

I wish I could starve myself. With all the psych drugs and not getting out due to anxiety and depression I am getting extremely obese. Every time I skip eating I binge on comfort food

This is then a real vicious circle.

Then you have to eat enough healthy things.

Do you have the opportunity to go for a walk somewhere in the park or forest?

 

[CoolGuy9]

I was trying to starve myself to death when I was in hospital but it was taking too long and I was going to be discharged by that point so I just started eating again. Two of these to be exact:
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Do you think you could have starved to death? I'm thinking about doing it myself, but I know starvation is suppose to be awfull and my willpower sucks. Also that food looks good.

 

[Soulless Angel]

I can do up to a week not eating, by the end of it I can feel really sick, but by that point I am content enough to eat again, I literally will only have water or similar weakened down flavours, I personally think, the more you do it, the more you get used to it, and the easier it becomes on your body, as it knows what to expect,
to do it to starve to death is not something I could do, the first time I went without eating for a long period, I was dragging myself up the stairs, it was horrid.

 

[cactus]

Thank you for the suggestion of walking. Yes I am surrounded by parks and walking trails. I just need to find the motivation to do it.

 

[Mentalmick]

Do you think you could have starved to death? I'm thinking about doing it myself, but I know starvation is suppose to be awfull and my willpower sucks. Also that food looks good.

I'm not sure. Definitely not in hospital as they would of just force fed me. The hunger side of it wouldn't bother me.

 

[logan]

Thank you for the suggestion of walking. Yes I am surrounded by parks and walking trails. I just need to find the motivation to do it.

start very briefly and slowly but regularly - after a short time you will even have the desire to do your daily round.

 

[CoolGuy9]

I can do up to a week not eating, by the end of it I can feel really sick, but by that point I am content enough to eat again, I literally will only have water or similar weakened down flavours, I personally think, the more you do it, the more you get used to it, and the easier it becomes on your body, as it knows what to expect,
to do it to starve to death is not something I could do, the first time I went without eating for a long period, I was dragging myself up the stairs, it was horrid.

Good to know. I don't know if I'll do this starvation thing in the future, but if I do, at least it might be easier.

I'm not sure. Definitely not in hospital as they would of just force fed me. The hunger side of it wouldn't bother me.

Hmm okay then. Starvation while certainly not fun, is a lot less worse than I expected.

 

[lotus11]

You won't die from starvation. I've been anorexic for 10 years. Your body gets used to it so it quickly becomes easier not to eat than to eat. But it will fuck up your body and although you may die early than the usual age it could take about 30 years. Wouldn't do it. Not reccomendable at all

 

[CoolGuy9]

You won't die from starvation. I've been anorexic for 10 years. Your body gets used to it so it quickly becomes easier not to eat than to eat. But it will fuck up your body and although you may die early than the usual age it could take about 30 years. Wouldn't do it. Not reccomendable at all

Yeah I figured. I'm now kind of over the starvation thing. It lasted for 6 days. Now I eat very little, because food kinda disgusts me and I feel like throwing up either after I eat or just at random times.

 

[Lost Magic]

A couple of years back (when my mother died) I went into a deep depression. I went from a fairly chunky person to skin and bones in a matter of weeks. It was the skinniest I had been since I was a teen. I was drinking alcohol more then and I was praying to God every night to take me. I was hoping my heart would just give up and that would be it. Turns out my heart is stronger than I thought. I comfort eat now. So my eating habits have went in the reverse.

 

[usernamerequired]

I usually don't starve myself on purpose, but when I go through really depressed "phases" that last a couple of days to weeks, I tend to eat way less. Like, one slice of bread a day maybe. It's cause I just can't make myself eat more. Ive also grown to kind of like that empty hungry feeling if that makes sense? It somehow helps with replacing some of the sadness and depression sometimes. It's like a big black hole that sucks in all other emotions lol. Anyone else get that feeling too when they eat very very little?

 

[logan]

I often naturally don't feel hungry when I'm not feeling well.

Since I am in many ways responsible for my own situation, perhaps this is also a deeper kind of self-punishment.