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When do you feel most suicidal

  • Before Christmas?

    Votes: 7 15.6%
  • During Christmas?

    Votes: 17 37.8%
  • After Christmas?

    Votes: 21 46.7%

  • Total voters
    45
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diy-event

Student
Nov 16, 2024
132
I feel the most after Christmas - and its time to book a hotel room
 
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cotton

cotton

Member
Nov 6, 2024
84
It's during when I think about the past. Legit answer.

After Xmas, work and study continues and life resumes... And I find a new way to outlive the past
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
630
all of the above
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
328
Being with loved ones on Christmas made it hard for me to stomach the thought of suicide, and now that Christmas is over I have all the fresh memories making me feel guilty about hurting people. I wish I could have killed myself in early December before holiday season got underway, that's when I was most suicidal.
 
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Permanoir

Permanoir

Member
Dec 29, 2024
18
Before. Because the date is near my birthday
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,568
I feel the same regardless of what time it is with respect to christmas
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
39,590
I wish to cease existing every second of being burdened with this cruel, futile existence, my wish to die is a response to existence and I'll always hope to be gone no matter what as to me existence truly is the most terrible, tragic mistake, the fact that this existence was imposed that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for really is such a tragedy to me, I personally find existence to be deeply undesirable in every way and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence. I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than be enslaved in this pointless existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to be tortured by old age, the thought of suffering until old age is just so horrific to me, I'd never wish for the cruelty of existence, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I never should have suffered in this existence at all.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
1,082
None of the above. Holidays do not figure into my desire to die.
 
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Ligottian

Elementalist
Dec 19, 2021
860
Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, New Years Eve, New Years Day. Plus the cold weather and the family gatherings which I actually manage to dodge this year. A whole bag of suckery.
 
astonishedturnip

astonishedturnip

Like Christine Chubbuck, but sadder
Jan 16, 2024
227
After. I still enjoy the holiday season but once it's done and I have to go back to work, it's just a bunch of shit. Cold and dry weather, ice on the roads, dark or gray all day, shit sucks.
 
OptingOutSmiling

OptingOutSmiling

Experienced
Nov 25, 2024
209
It's more the thought of another year that gets to me, as opposed to a religious or family holiday. Tired of having a bottle of champagne by myself on new year's, and the new year not getting better than the last one.
 
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Tuonetar_

Tuonetar_

Member
Sep 18, 2024
91
I really love to cook, especially for a crowd, so the holiday season is (mostly) a fun time for me. But once it's over and the dopamine dies down I feel miserable and emotionally exhausted all over again
 
SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Careless Soul « MtF »
Nov 13, 2023
392
After Christmas I'd say, for new year's...
 
harlow-paige

harlow-paige

part bot, part girl, full disaster
Jan 1, 2025
23
all of the above, but that weird almost liminal in between time post christmas and pre new year is especially hard, it's like all my usual distraction methods are disrupted and i feel like i'm just left to sit in my misery
 

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