Discussion What’s your reason for trying to recover/recovering?

[padda]

I'm just curious about people's motivation:)

 

[platypus77]

I think mainly because my life isn't actually bad in anyway other than my mental and emotional instability.

Nothing is broken beyond repair, yet I'm always feeling too tired to turn it around.

I've been living this cycle of recovery and relapse for over three decades now. I can say that the rewards for the efforts were worth it every time.

But I must confess that with age it's getting a little harder to cope.

 

[vitbar]

Between my depressive episodes I find a lot to love in life.

 

[etherealspring]

bc i couldnt ctb im trying to recover but idk im losing hope and i feel very stuck

 

[Yume Nikki]

to see what life has to offer. im quite neutral about it. i still feel like i want to ctb sometimes but one of the reasons why i can't is because death scares me.

 

[MidnightCat]

Might not be the best reason but...

For those around me.

I've always thought suicide is not a way to stop the pain. It's a way to pass it up to other people.

If someone has to suffer better be me, so I'll keep trying to not ctb despite the urge to end it all.

 

[Manaaja]

I'm prideful and cocky and ballsy. Be sides or whatever you want, it's boring to even think of suicide after I failed so many times. I have no interest in it anymore.

 

[mikgazer6]

For me there is nothing to really recover from. I've already more or less gotten over depression and other unwanted unpleasant feelings, and I cannot imagine myself ever seeing suicide as something that isn't on the table. I suppose recovery for me just means maximizing my contentedness by limiting my suffering until I decide to leave.

 

[Namelesa Graves]

I have no innate reason to recover for myself as to me death is whats best for me but I feel like maybe I should recover just so its easier for me to continue and finish working on things I want to make so I can provide something I can only uniquely can to the people who are alive. Also that I am literally unable to ctb cus of not having access to effective methods.

 

[Parnate]

Cause I fear ctb for religious reasons and also my family will be in lots of pain if I ctb.

 

[Jdieiejdjaow]

I'll soon find out if I'm fubar after having been retraumatized. Pretty much at the end for me, especially given the circumstances and the abuse I'm often subjected to (in a western country). So I'm trying to keep going for a bit more.

 

[Spicy Tteokbokki]

I am a curious being and I want to see what the future holds for us, both when it comes to technology, certain things I want to see, but also just how much worse it can get in a lot of areas. If things really end up terrible I can CTB at that point.
Though I will admit, part of me is also just afraid of CTBing, even if I had a 95% foolproof plan I'd still weigh the potential cons heavily if I became e.g. handicapped..

 

[kosmischerunfall]

i think very highly of myself and think that i could bring great value to our society if i get up and actually do something but my mentall illnesses are slowly and steady destroying my sense of self little by little until theres no brain cells left i know i am a great person and have a big heart but i cant put it into use and another reason is my love

 

[LimpandNumb]

My husband and my children, although I must confess, this is becoming harder day by day but that's me.
I'm grateful we have our recovery reasons, which are important to each of us .

Hi everyone, I'm new here to posting but have lurked for a short time.

 

[padda]

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My husband and my children, although I must confess, this is becoming harder day by day but that's me.
I'm grateful we have our recovery reasons, which are important to each of us .

Hi everyone, I'm new here to posting but have lurked for a short time.

I wish the best for you

 

[LimpandNumb]

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I wish the best for you

Thank you Padda . Same to you

 

[22yearsbroken]

For me its 3 degenerative illnesses.. liver is fucked spine screwed all other joint a mess..suffer from H.E ...and ive lost everything i ever loved which is parents and worst of all my daughter so.. plus with all illness my time is already limited .. so i want to decide when where and how i go.. not they way it would end up.. with my life in someone elses hands.. my life, my way.. my death, my way..

 

[Maormer]

I'm just curious about people's motivation:)

It's a dumb small thing but my sister is getting married and she asked me to be a bridesmaid. She just got engaged recently and as much as a don't want to live, I love my sister too much to ruin her wedding like that. Her wedding probably won't be for at least a year and if I'm going to last a whole year I need to get better

 

[CatLvr]

I'm prideful and cocky and ballsy. Be sides or whatever you want, it's boring to even think of suicide after I failed so many times. I have no interest in it anymore.

This resonants with me. Except for the last sentence. As long as my son needs me to be here, I am here. Otherwise I am most definitely ready to join you. Soon as we get done throwing our chests out and screaming "Fuck you! I'll make it in spite of you bastards!"

 

[ChildOfLove]

I am trying to recover in the hope of preserving a dying friendship with the one person who showed me that life might be worth living and that genuine connection, however fragile, is still possible even for someone as broken as myself.