Discussion What's your most "unconventional" form(s) of self harm?

[scary]

Making this thread so I can see whether or not i'm alone in this, but what's your most unconventional form(s) of self harm that don't involve things that most people would typically think of when they hear the term "self-harm"

I have a few that I can think of off the top of my head, one being doomscrolling various sites that are not good for one's mental health (digital self harm ig?) but the other is one I feel kinda stupid for. Sometimes if I have access to it in the house i'll eat things that i'm "allergic" to. Put in quotation marks because i'm not even sure if I'm properly allergic. I don't break out in hives or need to go to the hospital but I do get a sore/weird feeling in my throat and sometimes a dull ache in my head, both of which go away fine without meds after a couple of hours. I figure "i'm suicidal anyway, I might as well eat this and live with a bit of discomfort" I know allergens can worsen overtime though. Dying by frozen Reese cups is an interesting way to go out i'll say that.

 

[DecayAndAsh]

Idk how unconventional this is but I'll periodically stop my antidepressants cold turkey. I'll force myself to go through the withdrawal until I can't take it anymore and restart it. I know full well what happens when I do it, but I do it anyway.

 

[interna]

i guess whoring myself out

 

[spiders.in.my.head]

keeping myself cold or overheating myself. also ig not eating if im not doing good mentally.

 

[ladyofsorrows]

i have a pinterest board named "enhanced interrogation technique" that's basically just a board full of beautiful women i wish i looked like. but since i save posts to it super often, my pinterest homepage is full of those pictures so just opening pinterest is sh to me lol.

 

[charlavail]

probably scrolling websites and subreddits that aren't helpful to my mental health

 

[Asya]

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[TheTwelthRootOfTwo]

Making this thread so I can see whether or not i'm alone in this, but what's your most unconventional form(s) of self harm that don't involve things that most people would typically think of when they hear the term "self-harm"

I have a few that I can think of off the top of my head, one being doomscrolling various sites that are not good for one's mental health (digital self harm ig?) but the other is one I feel kinda stupid for. Sometimes if I have access to it in the house i'll eat things that i'm "allergic" to. Put in quotation marks because i'm not even sure if I'm properly allergic. I don't break out in hives or need to go to the hospital but I do get a sore/weird feeling in my throat and sometimes a dull ache in my head, both of which go away fine without meds after a couple of hours. I figure "i'm suicidal anyway, I might as well eat this and live with a bit of discomfort" I know allergens can worsen overtime though. Dying by frozen Reese cups is an interesting way to go out i'll say that.

Yes, i can equate with the doomscrolling thing. I absolutely doomscroll things that are bad for my mental health. I've gotten to where I want to keep myself in a negative state so I don't pull away from my desire to kill myself. Because I know it will just come back anyway with a vengeance.

Edit to add: sometimes after I've let my leg hair grow, I'll pluck individual hairs because that sting is so satisfying.

 

[_wishforwings]

I have dermatillomania, which is basically where you pick at your skin, for me it's the skin on my fingers and it's to the point where my thumbs are permanently discolored, even though i'm a bit better about not doing it now. It can be emotional regulation but I also think I use it as a self harm tbh.

 

[just a bird]

scrolling through old text messages, either from when people have made the stupid decision to take a fight digital or from when I made the stupid decision to try and tell someone how I was feeling.

 

[insectontrial]

I'm autistic and have indeterminate colitis. I will eat foods that don't "agree" with me so I rapidly lose weight. I also have problems with abusing certain medications, such as bisacodyl laxatives, codeine, and promethazine (the latter two I'll take together in high quantities - I find promethazine switches off my feelings for a little while, makes me dissociate, and also makes me drowsy enough that I fall asleep and write off the rest of the day). When it comes to actual self-injury I hit my head off hard surfaces. I know it could make me go blind eventually, though, and that worries me a little because when I do eventually decide to CTB I'll need to be able to see what I'm doing. Bit of a tricky situation.