Help What's wrong with me? I need a third-person point of view

[tea on clouds]

For as much as I hate this world, I still have some reasons to live. But the problem is that I feel too tired to live, everything I do needs an huge amount of mental energy. It feels like I am fated to see all the things that keep me on this world collapsing in front of me, and my brain tortures me saying I did nothing to stop it, but I don't know why I can't help it. Am I just being a lazy person? I really feel like I should do something about it, but it is just too hard, I dont find the will and guts to live...

 

[UselessMF]

Sorry you are feeling that way, thats what depression do. I feel the same as you. I think it's important to keep fighting until the last ounce of hope is gone.

The choice to live or die is yours, just take the time to think about it.

 

[WornOutLife]

You are not lazy. You're just mentally exhausted just like me. This is a daily struggle so my best advice is, keep on trying! If we try hard we might be stable and lead a normal life!

 

[NodusTollens]

HUGS. I don't think you're being lazy, from the sounds of it, it sounds like you're experiencing depression. Depending on your goals for yourself, you would have to decide if treatment is something you want.

 

[BandAddict]

Not lazy. I hate that word, to be honest. It's used too often to describe people who are drained and unmotivated due to depression and such, which definitely sounds like your case.

I'm in a similar boat. Opportunities pass me by, and I just don't jump at anything because I don't see the point. If you haven't already, I suggest reaching out and maybe finding some help. If you have anyone around you that you can trust, maybe they can help you with it. Don't be too hard on yourself.

 

[greebo6]

Its the depression. Its what depression does.

 

[Deleted member 1768]

For as much as I hate this world, I still have some reasons to live. But the problem is that I feel too tired to live, everything I do needs an huge amount of mental energy. It feels like I am fated to see all the things that keep me on this world collapsing in front of me, and my brain tortures me saying I did nothing to stop it, but I don't know why I can't help it. Am I just being a lazy person? I really feel like I should do something about it, but it is just too hard, I dont find the will and guts to live...

Have you had your B12 level checked? Sounds like it might be low.

 

[Miss_Takes]

I am sorry youre having this experience and as others have said this is a symptom of unwellness not a failure of who you are.
Might I suggest making sure there isnt an underlying physical cause ... perhaps a thyroid AND testosterone level check.
I wish you all the very best in finding a way through this.

 

[fishtacos4me]

I have the same experience sometimes. ADHD, PTSD, and depression are what causes mine. Yep, everyone just sees me as a lazy person who doesn't do enough.

 

[babydeer]

I feel exactly the same way you do. No one I know IRL understands when I try to explain it.