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Givingupandgivingin
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- Oct 18, 2020
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I can't stay with my husband. It is my fault. Not his. I am very unhappy. I have read some things that suggest that at least suicide is finite but the children will forever suffer the pain of divorce. If I kill myself apparently their sense of self isn't damaged in the same way as if I left their father - not that I've any money or anywhere to go. I have absolutely nothing.
I am so worn down. I feel no joy in anything. I am self harming again. I hate basically everything about my life, which is extremely ungrateful as I know rationally I am very lucky. I wish I'd not had the children because now I have to worry about how whatever I do will affect them. Unlucky them, stuck with me.
All that goes through my mind is that I'm done. I want it to stop.
I am so worn down. I feel no joy in anything. I am self harming again. I hate basically everything about my life, which is extremely ungrateful as I know rationally I am very lucky. I wish I'd not had the children because now I have to worry about how whatever I do will affect them. Unlucky them, stuck with me.
All that goes through my mind is that I'm done. I want it to stop.